damnn.. woke up at 11 plus today... not bad lah.. considering the fact tt i slpt at 6 plus today.. :/ then woke up forgot i was supposed to have prata with wen for lunch and i ate macaroni and mushrm soup.. yumm.. the mushroom soup is super gd.. go geddit.. frm lazy gourmet... at shaw lido.. oh yarr. then afta tt i went online to try to find the road name where the bball court was near.. then its super idiot. i cldnt find the road name at all lorr.. then wen called me and say i dun hafta go liao lor.. cus its raining... errr... i felt super cheated.. then immediately after she called i found the damn road name!! all i saw was yck road. my god.. i wanted to peng right here man.. argh!! then sab told me the add of the place in the main.. wah sehh.. super idiot!!! ARGHHHH

and i wish tt i cld have jus one more chance
and i wish tt i cld be your pillar of strength
and i pray tt you will see tt what i;m saying is true
cus i... i wish for you

i can't remember the last time that we kissed gdbye
all our "i love you's" were jus not enough to survive
something your eyes never told me
but it's only now too plain to see
brilliant disguise when you hold me
and i'm free
i've been thinking and here's what i've come to conclude
smtimes the distance is more than two people can use
bt how cld I have known girl
it was time and not space you wld need
darling tonight I cld hold you and you wld know
but wld you believe
there's a light in your eyes that i used to see
there's a place in your heart where i used to be
was i wrong to assume that you were waiting for me
there's a light in your eyes
did you leave that light burning for me
cards and phone calls and photograph pictures of you
constant reminder of all the things you get used to
is there a chance in hell or heaven
that there's still smth here to build on
or do you just pick up the pieces after they fall
bt after all
there's a light in your eyes that I used to see
and a song in the words that you spoke to me
was i wrong to believe in your melody
there's a light in your eyes
did you leave that light burning for me
should i keep on waiting or does love keep on fading away
fading away
it's been a while since i've seen you so how have you been
did you get my letter i wrote you, but i did not send
i tried to call your old number
but the voice that I heard on the phone
i recognized but she told me the number was wrong
there's a light in my eyes but it's too bright to see
and a pain in my heart where you used to be
guess i was wrong to assume that you were waiting here for me
there's a light in your eyes
did you leave tt light burning for me


joel jus sent me this song...
i remember late january.. i put the lyrics of this song on my blog.. the part tt said.. there's a light in ur eyes.....did you leave tt ligt burning for me... the chorus part.. sigh. then daph told me smth like.. yeahh.. she left tt light burning for me.. sigh.. and i told her tt the lyrics were jus lyrics. they were no hidden meaning or anything.. sigh. i'm such a fool huhh. urghh. when actually.. there was meaning behind the lyrics. ughh. i hate myself..

woahh.. was blog surfing around for a while and i sorta realised that the world is actually a very very small place.. like almost everyones blog is linked to everyone's.. as in like.. people from other schs and stuff.. like WOW.. the whole worlds linked up!! amazingg.. OHH and roy jus asked me smth abt szuyu said its his fren wanna knoww.. and his fren is szuyu's admirer.. from his oi class.. 108.. from st gabs.. SZUYUU so chio... hahah..

((zhe shi jie ying wei you le ni...yi qie dou gai bian))

mmm.. my dad came to wake me up ate 12+ and i was like.. i dont have sch today!!!! dun wake me up... then he went of course you dont have sch today its sunday... and i screamed i dont have school everydayy let me slp!!!! argh. and he let me slp.. but by then i was fully awake.. super duper irritating lorrr... so i woke up and found that my lunch was jus wonton soup?? my god.. my poor growling stomach.. siggghhhhhhh so i jus ate the wontons and drank milk and thats all that have been sustaining me for so long?!?!? hahah. amazinggg... and its so irritating lorr. i wanted to watch she's all that.. as in i dled it qte awhile back? i took more than a day to dl it? cus the speed was like 0.05 most of the time then suddenly shot up to 30k.. weird huhh.. and then all i saw was those weird swirly patterns.. ARGHHHH...... waste my time. super shitty lorr.. :(

argh. my parents are so damn biased. i dun wanna say so much liao. sigh. i'm so pissed off with myself. and so angry. and so sad.

You have a mysterious kiss. Your partner never
knows what you're going to come up with next;
this creates great excitement and arousal never
knowing what to expect. And it's sure to end
in a kiss as great as your mystery.

Ecstacy.
Sex and lights,
It's totally chill,
you could really have fun,
with this little pill.


Which drug should you be hooked on?

it took little things for her to remember
the unhappy memories.
memories that shd be kept and tucked away
memories that she cannot bear to forget
although time has a way to make people forget
there are things you wont ever forget.
yet. all the memories bring back
is hurt and pain
the tears dont stop coursing down her face
she sits alone in the corner again
staring at the same spot
with the same blank look
still partly enshrouded in darkness
still haunted by the same smile
still tortured by the same words
still unable to forget..

jus got home.. hmms. met wen szuyu kiak roy kiak and guofeng at dhoby ghaut mrt at 1230.. went 10 mins late.. but szuyu was later than me.. okayy... and all of them were dressed qte terribly... only wen wore pants? everyone else wore shorts.. cus they were gonna play ball ltr.. so it was like.. i was wearing long sleeved blouse and skirt. and damn alot of makeup?! woahh. like so super extra lor. so i went to buy a new shirt? this nike bball shirt.. i think its cute! hhaha yarr. then we went to macs to eat cus kiak wanted to eat there cus he had coupons...

then ltr went to watch just married.. qte nice.. its funny.. at least to me.. and it was damn sad at some parts.. okayy.. i think tt i think its sad cus yarr.. it reminds me of some stuff? esp. when sarah gave this photo album of their snapshots to tom's fren to pass to tom..... damn whatever lorr.. wen.. does it remind you of smth?? :( yeahh.. and what toms daddy said to him ltr.. a photo album contains pictures tt captures happiness and smiling faces.. but its the unhappiness tt takes place between each happy moment that actually forges a relationship... :/ i dun really knoew how his dad looked.. cus i think by tt time i was crying until dunno what shit.. sigh. i'm so wo nang fei.. but i think near the ending the show was sad lor.. dunno why wen and szu like so wu dong yu zhong.. oh!! wanna watch matrix reloaded.. szuyu! we watch togetehr k? cus wen dowanna watch.. :/

then ltr went to get a cake for my bro frm swensens.. its his bday today.. damn sian. my mom's ordering pizza tonight.. so my maid dun hafta cook.. qte a shit dinner for bdae right? but we ate out last sun liao.. so we eating qte loaya pok food tonight?! yeahhh.. cant wait to eat the cake.. :) then we went home liao.. i mean szu me kiak went home.. wen gf and wens buddy went to wens place to play bball..

damn my mom. like wtf. i called her to order lagsagne for me cus i dun eat pizza but before i cld say anything. she said smth like whether you eat or not is unimpt. wth. like tt then i dun ever come home to eat liao lah. bloody screwed up shit.

conscious self


overall self

i am also...

//intellectual//withdrawn//idealistic//alert//progressive//

pessimistic//non conforming//conscious//future oriented//

too non judgemental | too disorderly | too coercive |
too antagonistic | too assertive | too domineering | too
externally obsessed | too insensitive | too individualistic

i think its quite true.. esp my overall self part. esp the sleep part!!! hahah

was thinking on the cab.. gonna write tt today was fun.. but wtf... i lost my hp on the cab!?!? sigh. i keep calling it lor.. y'alll help me to call k? 96782387.. sigh. and the cab is a citycab. number plate is SH[smth] 8029 [smth] argh. dun even know if i'll get it back// ever! --------- the cabbie called me.. and sent it back to my hse!!! omg.. damn nice!!!! yayy!

argh. i'm super duper dammit pissed off with max lor. argh. fucking irritating lor. shit. i jus realised that i ran out expletives to use.. arghhh!! really dammit pissed. i dint know how i managed not to fuckin quarrel with him lor. urgh. screw him.

there's now an official announcement!!! no sch for pri sch sec schs AND jcs until the 6th of april.. i'm like totally happy and cheered up.. its like an extension of the holidays!! yayy!!!

hmms. jus got home super pissed with people from cj!! urgh. okayy.. firstly.. when i went to wait for a cab this super fat girl jus walked in front of me and started flagging cabs. then i duno waited how long.. then this bloody skinny girl came to cut my queue again!! arghh! if this other indian girl went to cut my queue i think i would have screamed lorr.. luckily she asked if i was gonna cab back. but i gave up waiting and called a cab instead.. and like.. this two fat girls from cedar went to steal my cab.. then after tt they said the cab driver accepted TWO bookings?!?! like wth.. bloody idiot lorr. so he drove me back first. cus my house nearer. i dint mind anyway cus it was a maxi cab. big mah. and we shared to pay lah. so i only paid 4 bucks.. yeahh. :/

kk.. shall blog abt my day.. went to some lecture today.. then i went to register.. my present civics tutor is an econs teacher.. like.. okayy.. :/ he's super naggy?? yarr.. if you give a parents letter explaining your absence he will call them to double check one?!? so dumb. urgh. so anywayy he went to nag me some malay girls and two guys for not going to econs lec ydae.. i jus said i went to appeal.. so he nv say anything.. yeahh after tt i went to zao to cj liaoo.. sooo super sian at sa lorr. cj was so much better.. i think was cus there were people there.. as in st nicks people there?? yeahhh.. qte alot.. went there just in time to see them split up to go their own classes.. went to szuyu's class.. confessed tt i'm not a cj student.. but yeahh.. she's nice.. and she was an ex st nicks girl.. shes 25 yrs old.. :) lim smth one.. then after tt we basically went ard not conforming to the norm cus we dint go where everyone else did.. we sorta went ard the other ogs and went ard hiding.. in the girls toilet.. we even ate there lorr.. ate inside the toilet lorr.. it wasnt tt bad.. cus the toilet was qte clean. then some super bitchy girl who was a yr one facillitator came in and declared tt we shd go to our ogs after we finished eating. and she'll come back to check on us.... super xiao zhang lorr. super duper!! then we were playing bridge for a super long time. me jessica szuyu and tavia or smtimes this girl from scgs? i dun remember liao.. super fun lorr.. and i had my best hand in ages!! 3 aces 3 kings.. wahh.. then i call the other ace as my partner and we won!!! yayy!! haha.. super fun.. i wanna play bridge summore!! afetr tt had the cca fair.. went to watch judo szuyu tried badminton and we tried air rifle! air rifle is fun!! but its damn heavy!!! yarr. szuyu's not bad.. but i sucked.. ltr we went home lorr.. i left out qte alot today. cus i got no mood to blog... :/

was watching a movie.. and my dad wants me off the com soon.. so i'll blog in points yeah??

- was late for sch alrdy.. super weird if you're late then hafta queue up in twos to say the pledge...
-szuyu came to crash sa..
-me her esta went to sit at canteen
-then went to students lounge
-tavia came
-szuyu and tav went to appeal
-me and szuyu went to ny for me to appeal afta tt
-esta went to meet her jeremy
-cabbed down cab fare was 11 plus?? i hate sa.. cab fare all so ex.
-ny sucks
-super old super stuffy super yucky
-accidentally went to guys toilet
-cabbed to town
-szu pointed out tt all of us are somewhat animals except yr.. then she suddenly said she's been thinking very long and she decided hippo suits yr..
-went to lido to watch show
-ate at kfc pizza hut
-fell aslp..
-joel came and idiot szuyu woke me up.
-he ruined szuyus drink
-neo came
-wen came
-i made joel buy us another drink for screwin szuyu's drink up
-watched wild thornberrys movie
-joel went home
-szu tot she lost her wallet went home too
-went to edo
-went to cine bowl
-neo went home
-went to meet yq at lido
-went to toys r' us cus jeremy wanted to get a job
-basically walked to many places to find a job
-went to taka macs to sit.
-saw pau with a bung.. her present stead i think. almost blond hair man...
-cldnt tk the boredom and irritation
-went home
-bot archie comics! :)

one last thing...
you cannot lose someone you nv had & you cannot leave someone you were nv with...

((wish.upon.a.star))

she sits on a patch of damp grass
staring up at the sky
that is filled with millions of twinkles
stars that shine with radiance
stars that carry hope and promise
she waits for the stars to fall
a falling star a shooting star
she has all the time in the world
so she waits slowly for the star to fall
and when it does
she will make her wish at the very first moment
and she will wish that
everything will be alright in her life again

today was sucky.. was supposed to appeal to sa ac and ny.. in the end i dint appeal to any.. in fact i havent even registered at sa yet??? so right now i'm somewhat considered schooless.. like wth.. this sucks.. went to sa.. it was dammit boring.. so esta and i zaoed sa to crash cj?? hahas. damn lame lah horr.. then we were watching some sa video and bball highlights.. it was damn dumb.. i tot bball highlights shd have mroe bball right.. we ended up watching the people cheer more times lor!??!? stupid!! yarr. the food at cj sucks i think.. cus their so called best food wasnt really good?? i think oi's spag is betterr.. :/ saw qte alot of st nicks people there.. szuyu tavia kaixin christina and alotta loyalty people manda kee grace mar sab mingli fio and some scholarly lookign people... yeah.. in sa there was.. sera abby me esta xinyi two china scholars debbie candice and weird people.. at sa there are 3 oi people.. me szuyu's class the daryl and candice.. in cj there are alot of oi people.. got sab's class ranjan? i dunno how to spell.. and this bengish looking guy who's att to the eurasian girl erm. benji and a cedar girl shawn and peiling fio and onglai head jiaming and the irritating cedar girl..

i dint get to see darrell today.. hope tmr will be a better day.. and yayy!! szuyu's gonna go to sa tmr with me!!! but she might be going to ac to appeal afetr tt.. i think i shd go too.. :) but i hafta register at sa if not i have no sch.. :/ damn shit lorr... ohh and weilings bro is in sa too.. i think weiling is shuaier than her bro.. he's in esta's og.. oh yar! esta!! you're an idiot!! wait for you to appeal at cj then in the end you not going back! ahhh! then i hate sa lorr.. today i dint eat much at all.. and i spent like 24 bucks on cabbing?!?!? i dint even go anywhere except from sa to cj then back to sa then to my house!! i hate sa!! cab fare so ex one.. then i cab liao very she bu de!!!!!!!!! :( after going back to sa saw evita appealing there.. thru bball.. then i found abby she peied wo to find my classrm cus i was totally lost.. haha. and she found out evita was appealing there thru me and sera.. sera told me tt registration was tmr lor! waste my money to call tt bloody cab.... :( then i saw my neighbour at sa.. i think he's an ex sa boy.. yeahh.. stay at my estate and same block summore.. think he stays at the 8 floor.. always see his dad ard.. drives a super old blue merc.. yeahh.. szuyu's badminton teacher is qte loser lookign and i think he's qte can lah.. as in he looks like the kind in sch got no power type.. haha.. he tried to persuade szuyu they all to stay in sa... yarr.. then he said its almost impossible to go from arts fac to sc fac.. but not many people wanna get into computing.. so maybe i can!! yayy!! i hope i can lah... but now szuyu wans to go to ac.. sigh. she got cca to appeal in lorr.. hope i can get into their sc course.. :/ -crosses fingers and hopes- if i can then i will go there liao.. heck abt sa and its 8 bucks plus cab fares ard sg.. damn shit.

and when i came home.. my maid told me tt I left one of my chains and pendant with my clothes then she washed it.. then the chain broke.. like wth?!?! now the chain is totally screwed up.. urgh. i put it on my table lor. then i think she cleaning my room anyhow flip this flip tt then the chain drop unto the clothes pile.. then she washed it and broke my damned chain. bloody idiot. at least my pendant is okay... it better be lor.. she jus spoilt over a hundred bucks or so?? i dunno how much worth of jewellery.. if she spoilt my diamonds. she will die!!!!!!!!!!

she sits there alone and afraid
of what the past hides
of what the present shows
of what the future will bring
is there some way to stop time
and freeze this silent moment
this moment of serenity and beauty
this moment when she feels at peace with the world
when there is no bombings in the mind
nor gunfire nor cries of pain
she keeps herself distant from the world.
all she can see are things she want to see
all she can hear are happy songs she likes
all she can feel is warmth
she doesnt want to go back to the world of the living
she's living in her own dream world..

is this template nicer or is this blog

jus chged my template.. so sian.. it looks weird lah horr.. maybe i shd chg it again.. :/ tonight gonna celebrate my bro's bdae.. gonna go out for dinner.. again.. yeahh.. havent bot him anything.. think i can jus get him a bdae cake and save money lah horr..?? :) i'm so enterprising..

woke up at 12 plus today... i knew i shd have turned my phone back to silent mode last night.. cus it so irritatingly woke me up.. :/ yeahh.. then i had wonton mee for lunch/breakfast.. and i came to use the com liaoo.. yeahhh...

Find Out What You Think About Love.
Results

1. What kind of person you'll be attracted to in real life situation..
A. Rabbit - those who has split personality, like cold as ice on the outside, but hot as fire in the heart.

2. In the process of courtship, which approach would make you feel irrisistable...
D. Giraffe - patience, never give up on you

3. What impression you would like to give to your lover...
A. Dog - loyal, faithful, never change

4. What incident would cause you break up with your partner which character you hate most...
B. Snake - emotional, too moody; and you don't know how to please him/her

5. What kind of relationship you would like to build with your partner...
C. Rabbit - a relationship which make you feel warmth and in-love always

6. Would you commit adultery...
A. Human - you care about the society and morality, you won't do anything wrong after marriage

7. What do you think about marriage...
A. Dinosaur - you are quite pessimistic, you don't think happy marriage exist anymore nowadays

8. At this moment, what do you think of Love...
A. Lion - you always thirst of love, you can do anything for it, but you won't fall for it easily

she sits by the window..
seemingly mesmerized by the rain
fat droplets splattering on the window sill
trickling down the clear glass
but she is thinking again..
of everything unpleasant..
she needs to get away
but she has no where to run to
she craves companionship and at the same time
she craves solitude
confusion warring in her mind
too many conflicts going on for too long
she needs help.
but pride gets in the way. she will not ask..
inside she's crying silently to herself each day
somebody save me from myself...

omgg... dan jus sent me smth damn funny!!! i sent it to neo!! omg.. its damn funnyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

or shd i appeal to ac...?? i think i jus anyhow whack and appeal to all lah hor...?? and see which one i can go then i choose..?? shd i??

went out with my mom today.. went to shaw to eat.. ate at this place called the lazy gourmet.. hmms. the food there is good.. yumm.. and its cheap.. yarr. then went to shop for my bro's new shoes. cus he said his shoes tight liao. like ermmm.. his shoes are super duper new.. like 4 mths i think.. yarr. and i bot new shoes too.. must be sixty percent white to wear to sch right? yarr.. cldnt find any nice nike ones.. so i bot adidas one.. like dull pink stripes one.. yarr. then my mommy bot me eyebrow pencil thing again. cus i lost the refill. so shit right. i'm so careless and waste money... so yarrr.. i'm somewhat more prepared for sch now.. but i still dowanna do arts course.. and i really really hope sa will let me tk sc.. or at least let me take c maths econs and lit.. :/ SIGHHH.. i hate my posting...

evita jus called me.. like huhh.. why she call me huhh.. she said she got into aj lor.. and she's gonna appeal to sa.. like wahh.. i tot she go to rj one lor. then she said that cus rj arts cutoff pts is 5.. then she can only minus 3.. so she cannot go.. 9 - 3 = 6.. and she;s asking ard who's going to sa.. prisc cant make it to sa.. she's appealling back in i think.. she's going ny... aqnd 93 goes to sa!! oi has 93!! my hse nearby got 93.. i got str8 bus!! wahh.. so gd.. nex time if i no money to cab.. i can tk the bus!!!!!! :)

ahhh... i got into sa arts.. so shit lor. i dowan...... HOW.. szuyu is gonna go cj then sab gonna go ny.. then i think if i go sa i'll be alone right... i dowan to be alone!!!

rach - ny
sab - ny
me - sa
wen - sp?
szu - cj
neo - vj
esta - sa
kw - ny
anyone knws abt the rest????

it all seemed so easy.. it was the only one time where i actually had my future planned with you.. dreams to achieve.. but jus like dreams.. they were dashed. the moment i left you behind and walked on.. walked away.. all those times when i could still turn back.. all those times when i almost did.. all the regrets that i have.. the times when we'd talk on the phone all the way into the night the sweet nothings that you'd whisper to me.. then times when you'd hold me tight. oblivious to everythign and everyone except the both of us in our own dream world. at least i was always in the dream world. i never had to think about anything.. because you would always do so for me.. i would nv have to worry about anything because you would worry for the both of us. it was so easy jus being with you. and because it was so easy.. i took it for granted. i took you for granted. all the tears we've cried. the pain we shared. the joy we experienced. all of it came with a price. we've gone through so much. and so many objections. we've managed to stand on our own... and make it through. i knew i nv needed to worry.. because i knew that no matter what happened. you'd always be there and taht you would love me no matter what. if i cldnt stand on my own then you would help me. if i had trouble walking then you'd carry me. i know i disappointed you many times. but you still forgave me.. i remember conversations we had.. promises we made. i remember the tender way you'd always love and cherish me. i remember the times when you cried simply becus you made me cry. crying for no other reason than making the one you love cry.. i remember so much.. somehow i'm trying to block out all the parts with strife and spiteful hurtful cutting words. all the times we'd quarrel over small little matters and because we were both so stubborn we'd blow it up and make it into a huge affair.. even after so long i still miss you..

thank god you wont see this..

hahas. wen's buddy jus said smth tt i agree on totally.. but.. its abit bad lahh.. he said tt yanlin.. the cedar girl who whole day wear the ij u one and the one with a weird smile qte chio one if she lose weight.. he said shes squeeky whiney deaf noisy!! hahas.. i agree totally!! esp on tt day to sentosa! woah. super cha lor!!!

ahhh and szuyu reminded me of the postings tmr lor.. what if i dun get into sa! what if i... i.. get into ny!! i'll be wearing a shit colour u for the nex 2 yrs lor. yuckk.. but i think the criteria for choosing subs are more lenient there.. think if i go there i can tk f maths lor. so cool horr. :)

all her previously unshaken beliefs
came tumbling down in minutes.
doesnt anyone notice
tt her facade is crumbling
tt her eyes are red from crying
tt she is separated from the crowds.
all by her lonesome
always and forever
no one can penetrate her perfect veneer
no one can break down her wall of resistance.
she is impervious to everyone but herself.
her imagination is driving her insane.
things tt are there seem distant and unreal
she imagines things out of the air.
she makes too much of everything.
she is ruining her own life.
will she drive herself to the brink of mental instability
and dive down the cliff to lunacy
she often wonders has she gone crazy
and she rarely finds any answer to the negative...
she lies awake each night
hoping and praying against high odds
that maybe her mind will have a peaceful calm exterior again
instead of the tumultuous raging storm of foolish thoughts
thats all she can do.. to hope

went to marina today with wen neo chuns sab yq and frens. cant remember who was there liao.. ermm were supposedly celebrating ahchins bday.. yeah. was a lil late going there. but neo was later. then erm we went there and the sn people went to fly kite first then we played frisbee with wens buddy then we okayed bridge for damn long.. i super irritated lorr.. i kept winning.. until i said aloud tt today i keep winning leh. then i start to lose liao. then played daidee for a while then all of us went to the arcade except for wen and neo and wens buddy cus they were flying kite and dunno doing what. think at tt time ilango and danyael went back.. then sab me and chuns played the bishi bashi champ! fun..!! hahas. then ermm we went to bowl.. i think first rd i got 50+ but still better than wilson.. then second time rd i got 70 plus. also better than wilson.. hahas. ermm. sab was like good!!!!! hahas. yarr.. so is yq.. at least for the first rd.. but horr his ball is like damn hard damn fast and damn spinny and when it hit the pins damn loud!! like the opposite of my bowling like tt.. i bowl like so no strength and so slow and dun spin much.. and hit the pins got no sound one.... hahas. then ermm.. went to arcade again.. then went back out to the field to fly kite.. then some guy joshua i think brot this girl dwn.. at first i tot she was our age one.. but i look clearly abit then she like looks damn young.. hahas. she said she's 15 this yr.. then erm jeremy came damn late.. but darren and shaun and yanlin and two frens were ltr.. we played touch rugby then guys cannot touch girls but girls cannot td.. so sad cus wen was on the opp team. unfair lor.. :/ hmms. then we waited for the late people.. then after tt the guys dorta bashed ahchin.. so can lorr. i mean.. birthday must kena bash one.. hahas.. then ltr went to suntec for dinner. wanted to have kenny rogers. but the place was closed down. so irritating. i feel so cheated lor. then ltr dint knw where to eat.. so dumb.. went to foodcourt again..sighh. then i bot yami yogurt! nice nice nice!! ermm.. then at 9 or so i went back with sab and wen.. woahh.. we like took twenty mins to walk to the mrt lor!!! so long.. then i cabbed home frm bishan. mms. think my mom and dad's kinda not happy with me.. buggers.

surrounded by rubble and dust
the remnants of the warring in her mind
with eyes too dry to cry anymore tears
and a heart too numb to feel anything
a mind too weary to think
she's sits there
alone and destitute
living her life out unwillingly.
there's nothing left in the world for her.
there's nothing left in her for the world.
but still she's afraid
of everything in her life.
in her own small crumbling world.
she sees life with tainted eyes
cynicism. jadedness. world weariness.
she cant walk out of her tangled emotions
and its tearing her apart.
eating her alive.
until one day when she will disappear
but no one will realise it.

my daddy told me the meaning.. omg.. my daddy's so smart.. maybe tt's why he's a daddy.. zionists means jewish extremists... wahh.. i wanna be as cong ming as my father!!!

sighh.. i really think there;s smth seriously wrong with me.. as in mental instability.. urghh. cant think straight these days.. maybe i shd go into seclusion for the next few days huhh... arghhh... so damn not sure of myself.. like previously all my unshaken beliefs are shaken?! or whatever.. i dunno how to say. i jus feel like i'm going haywire..

hahas. i think the war is interesting!! saddam called george w bush - little evil bush!!! hahas. super cute! the name lahh... and he used this super chim word.. zionism!! omg.. what word is tt!!! will neo or esta tell me?? okayy.. went to bishan today.. with yq fio julia shawnie joel max wilson[who's new haircut is like shit].. oh!! and alex.. the super psyco looking beng.. why did he go.. eeyerr.. to watch ahchin and ahfeng play bball.. but.. both of them lost in the first round i think.. hahas. damn dumb. esp ahfengs grp.. kena trashed man.. then ltr went to have dinner or whatever its called at delifrance.. sab rach and chuns came along.. i super dint expect to see them at the 3 on 3 thing lor.. wonder why today got no girls playing one. isit tmr?? oh also saw wen and prisc and wen's buddy.. at least i think it was her buddy.. :/ yeahh.. then i came home early.. before six.. so guai of me horr!!! :)

((war.comes.in.search.for.peace.but.rarely.finds.it))

the war has sorta began... hmms.. i think its quite interesting.. but its sad for all those who will perish in the war.. i think right.. if bush wants to fight the war he shd go fight saddam one on one.. then like who die then lose. who lives on then win.. then wont involve the innocent.. right..?? then this morning i heard bush's address to the public. said tt the war is in the first few stages of iraqi disarmament.. and he said there are 35 countries supporting the us in the war.. is singapore one of them...?? i dun think the countries have a choice right.. if they dont support the us then the us will sort of barr imports from those ctys then the ctys economy will like go bust?? yeahh.. then he said the soldiers who are at the frontline will have the respect and whatever of the american people.. but i think if i was a soldier i'd rather have my life.. and four limbs and a head attached to a body than to have respect of the american people. yarr.. i think the war is pointless lahh.. dont even think the us will managed to kill saddam but what they'll do is to make iraq become afghanistan.. then hafta rebuild the whole iraq.. then us will be controlling the future iraqi leaders like puppets.. and further boost the us economy.. the war is crap lah. i dont even think i'm coherent now.. hahas...

ahhh.. szuyu broke up with me.. so sadddddd!!!

argh. fuck. jus quarrelled with my mom. screw her.

What month should you have been born in?

sian. jus woke up at 3.. yawns. sleepy.. got nothing to do. think i'll be bored through out the dayy.. hahas. better find smth to do.. dowanna stay at home and bai bai bei wo de jia zhang ma..

((memories.still.imprinted.so.vividly.in.my.mind))

i jus realised smth stupid abt nick carters song.. do i have to cry for you.. its just crying lor.. he's singing like as though it means tt he'd hafta die or smth. crap. its only tears. who havent cried before. sigh. tears cant do anything.. nothing can bring back time for you to salvage what you lost. nothing. when its gone. nothing you do can bring it back.

i know you are.. but i'm still not.

am so pissed with my dad now. urghh.

ydae went out with yq at first.. went to renew his passport photo.. then went to town to get my eyebrow pencil.. dint know how i was gonna survive without it.. then ltr went to sentosa.. went there.. was damn sian.. found out tt sab's vball kena koped.. then had to borrow ball from some 101 person. then was bored so went back to hotel rm with yr. went to the bus stop to wait for a bus. waited for dunno how long.. then yr went to see the board tt show's what bus goes where then we realised tt the bus tt we were waiting for had stopped its rounds. stupidly we retraced our steps.. then walked along the beach. then in the end the rest caught up with us... went back to hotel rm.. tot we were going out for dinner.. but had cup mee that wen bot. yeah. and played bridge. taught esta how to play.. i think i'm a damn lousy teacher lahh.. everytime i try to teach then no one will get it. but other people teach then so fast learn liao. so idiot. then found out we were gonna spend the rest of the night in the hotel/resort rm?! woahh. its like. the night was still young!! played bridge til abt 9 plus then ate then i was leaving to go to max's place.

kw was so nice to walk me to the bus stop and wait for the bus with me.. i bet if i went to wait alone.. i'll be so damned freaked out. AH!!! then ltr the bus came.. on the bus back to the main island... woahh.. the whole bus was filled with malays and indians.. aiyerr.. the bus stank.. then took a cab frm tiong bahru to choa chu kang. have not much idea where chao chu kang is.. near jurong i think.. i think xinhui stayed at cck right.. before she went to shanghai or smth.. yeahh.. max house got this scv copycat thing.. have alot of channels one.. i wonder how they got it.. but they dont have some channels.. eg. cartoon network! and erm the eng mtv. then played daidee and the loser drinks this coke pepsi or smth mix with vodka thing.. then ltr they played mahjong.. was having gastric liao since 1 plus?! dint know how i made it thru the night.. then played daidee again.. but mixed vodka with milk.. it tasted qte shitty.. then fountain drank it for me.. then ltr used coke and vodka.. then used sake. the sake was strong.. but you drink liao immediately have the nice and warmy feeling inside!!! so nice.. woah. but the smell smelled damn strongly of alcohol.. abit hard to breathe when it was spilt in front of me on the mahjong table. during the whole thing.. yq helped me drink qte alot. he say dowanna let me get drunk. but like.. huhh.. wont lah. i was damn damn sober.. then refused to let me drink. WHY... i like to drink waht. except the milk and vodka part.. then ard 5 max mother came to chase everyone to slp.. so went to slp on the sofa.. was damn hard to slp lor. got no place to turn to.. then was cold.. then my headset and rubberband and my chain kept choking me.. then i scared i pull too hard i spoil this chain again.. the guy who repaired it said if spoil it again then might not be able to fix liao. so got no choice.. was chokey last night. then kept waking up... woke up ard 9. then jus lied there.. then sat ard then had cheesecake for breakfast.. then went to tiong bahru at 12 plus. huhh. so late.. then went to eat at food court.. again went to look ard there to see if there was anything to get my bro for his bdae.. the only thing i saw was out of my budget by about 100 bucks... dumb. then bot yami yogurt!!! i remember used to eat it in the hosp when i went to see my bro.. but when i went to see wen tt time... the shop had closed down!! so sad.. then ltr ate some dianxin tt was lousy then went to sentosa. wah seh.. i was seriously damn bored.. thankfully wen sab neo szu chuns esta came... dint do much.. then went back.. i mean szuyu went home. sab and chunsi went to 110s class thing esta and neo went to cj thing then me and wen went to wens house.. bathe and stuff then went to town for dinner. was supposed to meet prisc abby sera and lijie ltr. wen and i had edo fro dinner.. hahas.. i've been longing for edo for a damn long time. except there was a slight prob on the part of my companions.. so cldnt go. after going there.. i realised the prices like dropped AGAIN.... the red plate is like only 6 bucks now.. and the cheapest plate is 140 ONLY.. and my amaebi thing is 1.40 now!! omg.. i wonder what happened. maybe no one's buying it. anw. wen and i ordered a plate or amaebi sashimi each and she had a plate of salmon and rice thing dunno whats it called. and i ordered chawan mushi chicken ramen and crepe ice cream.. wen!! the crepe ice cream is super nice right!!! hahas.
then came home liao.. the moment i come home almost quarrelled with my dad. so shit. urgh. but he;s gone to bed.. hahas. gd.

woahh.. i jus realised that a lot of people are going sentosa.. firstly say the people tt i know lahh.. got our class people.. some oi 101 people i think.. and grace and her frens. then after tt i was browsing thru other peoples blog then i read that more people are going sentosa.. aiyerr.. i bet the beach there is gonna be damn crowded.. hmms.. lucky i'm going ltr!! :) no need to squeeze with everyone.. oops. my mom jus came home from the market.. with a super damn damn black face.. i think she scolded me ard 3 plus last night.. then she offed my air con!?!? i was like swathed in sheets the whole night. sweated until dunno what lorr.. like a bloody suana like tt.. then think she;s still in a bad mood now lahh.. hahas.. yuckk.. she bot fishball noodles for me!! why no prawn mee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my msn got this person the username is -- in war it doesnt matter who is right... but who is left... damn dumb.. at first i tot it was the right left right left thing.. then i realised tt it cld have another meaning!! i'm qte proud tt i tot of it.. it can also be in war it doesnt matter who is correct.. but who is the survivor!! hahas.. hmms.. jus realised tt tmr only got 8 people going!! sab szu wen neo kw esta chuns and me lahh.. so few lor!!!!!!! what kind of class gathering is that!!! hahas.

Probably the only reason you're in the punk crowd is because it's rowdy and full of beer. You have a loud obnoxious nature, but your goofyness and constantly upbeat attitude make most people like your company very much.


Whats Yer Punk?

i chged my template to smth else.. sighh.. so tired of anything to do with coms.. but i still feel like blogging.. yeahh. just remembered that i havent told my mom abt the sentosa thing.. oops.. what if she dun let me stay huhh?! i'll be kinda pissed off.. with her and mostly with myself... urghh.. i'm so forgetful and right now they're at the cruise.. hp got no reception one.. bugger.. better remember to ask tonight...

szuyu. i wanted to sign your gbk.. but it kept coming out as oops.. you dint fill in the required fields... so shit.. anyway wat i wanted to say was.. he doesnt sound half beng half gay okayyy..... idiot fish.. even if he does.. wo ye hui xi huan...
sighh.. shd i chg my templates back?? am feeling super pissed off with internet now...

argh fuck fuck fuck fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm so damnit bloody pissed.. i finally finish unmessing up my gbk and blog template.. then the stupid stupid boomspeed wedpg thing was working again?!?!!?!!? ARGHHHHHHHH

sighh.. jus chged my template to some super square thing tt i used to use.. sighh. modified it a lil.. not in the mood to make a new template.. damn bored.. urghh.. the stupid boomspeed thing got damn screwed up.. arghh!!!! so my blog and szuyu's blog are screwed up right now.. wonder if it'll ever work again.. :/

You're the smirk,a frown-smile hybrid that's a
little bit cocky and usually associated with
evil or arrogant,but attractive people.You
probably just don't give a damn,but it's
everyone else's fault if you don't because
you're too awesome to have any real faults.

wahh... today the fun fair was damn sian lorrr.. arghh.. it sucked like dunno what. went there at 145.. then had to wait for neo and esta for abt 20 mins.. then went to walk ard... esta went to find her fren then we bot ice cream then esta and neo bot some jelly from tian. then we were walking ard the sch abit.. and saw shit lorr.. lynnette lah.. she's still hanging out with candice and jiamin they all.. and esta said she diaoed us.. hahas.. like what crap.. ughh.. i feel like i'm sullying my blog by writing her name here.. then we went to home ec rm.. me kw esta and neo koped alot of shunyi's tuna plaits thing. hahas.. it was nice.. i think shunyi can go be housewife next time.. or a cook.. then i sold the remainder of my tickets to foo.. i think foo is qte nice lah horr.. hahas. yeahh.. then we went down to the netball court there.. and neo bot me ice cream!! so nice of neo right!!! thank you neo!! hahas. then we went to sit ard and slack.. basically after that we jus slacked away the day..

then went to meet yq and jeremy in taka.. and i came to this conclusion.. that yq looks like a beng no matter what he wears.. hahas... think he looks the least beng when he's in sch u.. yeahh.. after that their fren came.. went to starbucks in paragon to sit ard.. then walked to borders.. then came home.. yeahh.. i'm like super duper inspired to buy the i pod.. super cute lorr.. hahas.. maybe lahh.. i'd rather get this than a new hp... :) and i forgot to buy my eyebrow pencil again!! i'm gonna run out of pencil liaoo.. shit lorr.. anyone going to town tmr?? help me buy frm tangs.. pleaseee....
brand - ipsa
colour - dark brown
cost - 18

bored.. woke up quite early..
came online...
jus had lunch.. prawn mee..
going to sch at one thirty... better start to get ready liao..
funfair..
bet in the end i'll buy more fun fair tickets lor..
so waste my money.. urghh

my mom is such an ass.. she doesnt believe that i had dinner with esta and neo and wen?! urghh. she keeps thinking tt i'm lying to her. bugger. and whole day bug me.. keep saying my dad say this my dad say that. argh. whatever then if i go out then she will neh me... i dun go out then she will say.. why nv go out?? idiottttt

i feel super irritated with myself today lorr... urghhh.... for 3 reasons...
one. i dint know the price of 6100.. it's 750.. but i tot it was 600.. in hk the price of 6100 is 600.. so i tot same price so i ask my mom to buy then she wont buy also... but if its like a hundred cheaper then she'll buy the hp for me?! soo idiot.. so now i still hafta use my 6510.. that almost everyone has..
two. i wanted to buy this pink blouse thing.. but it was 66.. i had only.. 56......
three. my period came. it sucks like shit lor.. it came the moment i went to bathe.. so it was kind of lucky.. but still... sighh.. now i dont feel like going sentosa on monday liao.. will someone else's period come tooo?? argh. why cant i be a guy instead!!!

okayy.. but apart from this.. i think tt my day is qte okay?? went to sch.. sch was damn sian lorr.. sab dint bring her vball today.. so all of us except wen was like bored to death.. watched people play ball all day.. i managed to get a short nap.. but was woken up cus yr or szuyu dint wanna let me go back to slp... keep waking me up to tell me tt yq fell down... then after sch we went to seoul garden.. alot of people lorr.. 20+ then we wait and wait for everyone to be ready so mafan.. at seoul garden.. i ate prawns... and abit of rice and ice cream.. damn siann.. then after tt wen and esta came to join us.. then they stayed there to eat while the rest of us left.. we went to tk neoprint.. we all look damn weird.. and i was darker than sab!!! ahhhhhh... i seriously feel like crying.. stay out of the sun for so long then go under the sun for 2 times.. black again.. argh. then wen and i went back to seoul garden for dinner.. no extra charge.. yeah. then after walked ard abit.. then wen esta and neo went home and i went to find fountain... was bored.. and slpy.. reached home after 10.. the idiot cab driver keep trying to cheat my money lor.. idiot.. yeahh. damn tired.. nothing to say liao..

ohh.. its the last day of sch!!! no more pinafores for like the rest of my life.. no need to feel hot liaooo.... :)

feeling too tired to blog.. ugh. as in slpy kind of tired.
went to sch.
went for sabs' lit lesson.
zaoed during recess.
went to jurong water park.
hungry.
went to change and eat.
went to town to watch movie.
but too slpy.
so went home.
took a nap.
hungry.
went to eat.
bored.
came online.
this is dumb..

sara is damn damn sick lorrrrrrr..... ughhh.. make me see so many many damn gross pictures.. yuckk........ totally sick sick sick damn damn damn disgusting stuff.. ughhhhh
wen and szuyuuuu... tmr go water park lahhhhhhhhh

today was kinda fun.. szuyu came to sch.. but i nv keep pangseh-ing wen for yq okay!! wen.. dun anyhow say mahh.. yeahh.. today went sch.. i was late again.... hahas. then ltr went to sabs' class to find wen and szuyu.. then i was too slpy.. so i tried
to sleep.. wah seh.. her class sucks lor. i cant even sleep in peace.. at first they were so noisy.. i hao bu rong yi then fell aslp and someone's bloody ball hit my shoulder.. urghh.. then i woke up.. ltr on somehow managed to slp again.. woke up abit afetr the second period then went into the audi for econs lecture.. alone.. wah sehh.. so idiott.. wen and szuyu all dowanna go lecture with me.. hahas.. but.. i dint go to the lecture to pay attn also what.. but i tried to pay attn.. cus when i go jc.. then i'm still gonna do econs.. yeahh.. then ltr went for recess.. but wen and szuyu and rach and sab and chuns all disappeared to the gym.. all idiots lor.. pangseh me.. then i went to find them after recess.. yeahh.. played netball... and my team lost.. then ltr we played handball.. my team lost again.. kept losing because wen was in the other team.. this is soo utterly ridiculous.. urgh.then ltr i was too tired then went to lie down to rest.. rach came to join me for a while.. then we wanted to play badminton.. but we dint even play for two mins... some idiot guy made us return all the equipment.. whatt crap! so dumb lor.. ltr me and sab went to play vball.. i really suck at sports.. urghh.. then ltr yq and jeremy came to join in... and i kept having to run and pick ball lorr.. cus sab and jeremy whole day hit the ball too far for me to reach.. then ltr me rach sab szu chuns and this girl went to play captains ball with sabs vball.. played abit then amir came in to chase everyone away.. cus the whole sch's hvaing civics mah. so we had to go.. siann.. during civics we heard talks abt iraq and some domain thing.. after tt i fell aslp.. woke up then like just nice we were dismissed.. after tt went toilet and i washed my hair without shampoo lahh.. then i felt super damn damn awake afetr that lor.. hahas.. then ltr went to bugis to eat.. and walk ard.. had mos burger.. ate the butterfly prawns.. ahhh.. so long nv eat liaooo.. feels so happy to eat it lorr... came home quite early today.. yeahh..

ohh.. my mom agreed to give me money to make atm acct.. hahas.. i feel happy nowww... :) yeahh.. but i hafta make it myself.. :/ sab.. how much deposit do you need to have..?

i just changed my gbk's template to match my blog's template.. both are dancers.. hahas.. i feel damn damn esta-rish!!!

i too lazy to change my template to fit shawnie's name in so i jus add his link here k..
yes you're tt gay

jus took a bath! i'm nice and clean smelling now!! hahas.. been sticky the whole day lor.. ughh.. went sch today.. was late again. then wen and i went for gp.. then we zaoed chi. then went to the lib.. wen finally played bridge today.. she was kinda excited.. hahas.. lame.. then guess we were making too much noise then maybe some teacher complained to the singh lor.. he came and made us all write our names then he ask what lesson and why we were in the lib. hahas.. then wen and i said we dun hafta tk chinese.. so he excused us.. she tot of it lor.. so smart huhh.. and fio managed to run out of the library.. yeahh.. the rest had to write a letter or sm kinda crap.. then after recess we went to play badminton and ermm floorball.. i'm soo super proud of myself!! hahas.. i scored two goals!! :) hahas.. then after tt i went to library.. then wen called me after a while and she came to library too.. went canteen then we played daidee with yq and jeremy.. jeremy kept winning lorr... damn lucky.. then wen like cannot win like tt.. keep losing.. hahas.. yanrong!! i bet you're super damn damn regretting that you nv come sch today rightt... hahas.. then after sch dismissed wen went to marche's with sab rach and chuns? i think.. then i went to tp hub to eat.. and then went to town to watch the pianist.. i dunno how on earth everyone says its nice lor... i think it's just not my type of movie?? i hate to watch war stuff.. eg. the pianist and charlotte gray.. yarr.. then took bus home frm far east.. had jap curry for dinner.. it was terrible.. its really not spicy at all?!?! hahas..

szuyu!! go sch tmr k?? we play badminton and stuff okayy?? yarr.. whole day lahh.. :) and i cant sign your gbk.. it says smth like there's no gbk by tt name or smth.. huhh?! wanted to say.. you listed out all the Js.. joel jonathans james.. but forgot jeremy.. and who is jam??

siann... jus had my dinner... today went to sch.. went for econs lesson with szuyu... but our teacher sorta found out and chased szuyu out of class... then after tt szuyu wen and me went for econs lecture.. so idiot lor.. i persuaded them to go lecture with me... and the reason tt i went to the lecture wasn't there.. i felt so dumb.. urghh.. then ltr we went to library to slack.. hahas.. wen finally learnt how to play bridge and she kept wanting to play.. but so sad for her.. cus we dint have a forth player.. no one knew how to play.. then suddenly i think it was rongtai who came to tell us tt our gp teacher was gonna come to the library.. hahas.. luckily lorr.. if not we had no preparation at all.. :) then we had to find some sexual discrimination thing.. wen fell aslp reading her women rights book.. i was reading some women thing in japan.. qte interesting lah.. i think history's kinda interesting.. too bad i hate to study arts.. yeahh.. then ltr we went to play badminton.. at first i dint wanna play.. but after tt was too bored.. so went to play.. then played volleyball too.. i seriously dunno how to serve ball lorr.. and i also dunno how to hit one... hahas.. then ltr sab's classmate.. the indian guy.. the one tt szuyu called luncheon or smth joined rach and sabs grp.. wah sehs.. he's damn damn one man show.. hahas.. abit like kw.. yeahh.. afetr tt wen and i played badminton doubles with yq and some other guy.. who i dunno.. :) ohh.. and we told james tt yr likes him.. and yr was msging joel on my hp.. cus she dint bring her hp today.. and he sent some msg tt says smth like and you're so swt... hahas.. yanrong..... ni shi bu shi you shen me man zhe wo men ah??

then after sch went to tp hub there to eat with oi people.. then after eating went to town to walk ard.. saw priscilla and melvin.. found out tt they patched again hahas.. they dunno break patch break patch how many thousand times.. hahas.. then went to lips at cine.. ate my mashed potato and the cookies and cream smootie... :) so yummy.. but i know its damn not worth money.. hahas.. but i still like the place.. then we sat on the super nice and comfy sofa.. yeahh.. after that then came home liaoo.. i think i really slp alot on my way home everyday lorr.. hhas.. i'm such a pigg.. :) ohh... and i saw ivy at bishan.. cus i took mrt then took bus.. havent been taking cab these days... i rather not take cab anywayy.. hahas.. yeahh.. her voice sounded damn shit... makes her become more latino hunkish.. hahas.. yeahh...

yayy.. szuyu's gonna use the template tt i made for her!!! :) go to sch tmr k... :)

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh... i jus read my bro's essay for his eng hw.... wah sehh... he's like sec 3... and he uses words tt i dont even know?! sighh.. i'm damn damn damn shi bai.. okayy.. someone tell me the meaning of these words pleasee... capitulation and totalitarianism... sighhhh.. esta and neo!! your eng damn sut sut one.. tell me!!! :/

I Am

siann.. nv go anywhere at all today.. and its like.. no one was really online..?? yeahh.. then like no one thinks tt this template is nice?? :/ sighh.. okayy.. maybe i shd go chg to a new one huhh... :/

hahas.. avril's picture on this quiz.. and she;s the outcast..

hahas.. i changed my template againn.... it looks damn damn different from my other blog templates right.. hahas.. but yeahh.. i'm happy with it.. :)

sighh.. jus realised tt there;s smth wrong with my template.. urghs.... as in not the blogger banners thing.. there's some black box somewhere ard.. dunno what to do.. hahas.. hopefully i'll figure it out soon.. :/

sian.. woke up ard same time as ydae.. actually.. its was jus one minute earlier.. cus i check my hp the moment i wake up.. yeahh.. so i can sorta remember the time..? yepp.. siann.. then after tt i ate my breakfast cum lunch tt my mom bot for me... its the mian fen guo that wen and esta likes.. sighh. used to like it alot.. but now not really liao..? but i jus ate it lor.. blogger is really qte irritating.. the banner thing still has smth wrong.. arghhh.. shd i go change the template back...?? or make a new template...?? szuyu.. your template is totally screwed.. cus all your pictures are x-s now.. yeahhh.. hmms... now i;m listening to the she song tt wen sent me dunno how many eons ago.. their voices is damn damn damn swt.. yeahh.. and they harmonise very well.. hahas.. i dunno how to phrase it lahhh..

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go see this web pg... its supposed to be hong ee... omg.. in WHAT way does this look like hong ee... hahas.. frm st nicks.. the one frm justice.. hahas.. she drew it herself.. and said its HER self potrait..hahas... she said this is how she plans to loos after she slims down or smth.. hahas.. what rubbish..

stupid blogger is still spoilt.. so my links cannot be seen as yet.. urghhh.. irritating lor.. but anyway today was a nice day.. :) hahas. at first went to bugis.. yeahh.. it was damn crowded there.. but i dunno why.. cus its like.. there's nothing much to see?? yeahh.. :) then ltr went to town.. :) and had dinner in the foodcourt downstairs lor... then walked ard to heeren and taka.. and saw ivy lee and this other girl.. the one from the unbeatables the yan fei's niece.. in the show i tot she was fat.. but yeahh.. jus saw her. and omg.. she's damn damn chio... and skinny lorr.. hahas... damn damn chio.. if only wo you zhe yang piao liang!! :( hahas.. then went to taka and walked ard abit.. then came home!! :) i think i spent qte little today too.. twenty... :P dint do much actually... but i'm still happy.. k.. my campbell soup is ready.. i go eat now.. :)

yayy.. i found the missing can of vanilla coke!!! hahas. so happy.... :)

arghh.. my bro is seriously qte a major idiot.. he keeps saying fuck.. like absolutely every single sentence of his is laced with vulgarities.. and he's like talking to himself.. hahas.. and he keeps waving his hand ard in this mad man type of way. and slamming the table.. eeyerr.. i hate people who do tt.. slam the table.. and keep scolding and scolding and scolding.. hahas.. my bro jus said smth dumb.. he said.. fuck them. i feel like fucking all of them dead.. hahas.. i mean.. how do you fuck a person until he/she dies?? okayy.. dun think he knows the meaning of whatever he's scolding.. i wont tell him too.. hahas.

today i woke up early again... sighh.. woke up 10 plus.. almost 11.. chdnt get back to slp.. when i'm so sleepy.. i cant slp?! urghh.. smth's wrong with me.. then anyway frm then onwardss i've been at the com.. dammit bored.. :/

urggghh.. i think i killed too many ants today.. and they've decided to tk revenge on me by biting my hands.. so itchy!!!! oh.. i chged my template! so happy! hahas.. but my mom said it was ugly!! so bad huhh.. but i;m still happy... cus i think as long as you have one person tt can make you smile... no matter how crappy you feel.. you'll still feel cheered up at the end of the day.. :)

ltr tonight got mvp!!! mengze is so cute.. yeahh.. and someone jus told me in the end xiaoxi will end up with duan chenfeng.. so sad.. what abt taizi!!!!!! the show ending not nice one!!!!!!!! :(

oh.. manda.. i forgot to add your link again!! hahas.. jus added you in... ughh.. my com table is crawling with ants.. i jus murdered 5... terrible.. but its okayy.. not in the mood to complain right noww.. hahas.. cus i'm happy with my life right now.. :)

i was on time for sch today.. then went into the sch then saw wen and sab walkin into the gym together lahh.. then after assembly wen and i went for our chinese lesson.. was too boring. so we fell aslp.. thru our maths lec too.. omg.. i cant imagine having to do chinese again for the next two years.. urghh. then wen and i jus sorta went to buy spaghetti for recess without really thinking.. then after we bot.. we realised tt we werent really hungry.. and i dint even eat half and wen dint even eat a quarter?! hahas.. we shd have shared one plate.. how dumb are we!! hahas then we went to library.. and i stupidly fell down on the stairs lor.. ughh. i better tell my side of the story if not wen might distort it!! hahas.. then i somehow managed to not only knock my head my hand my knee and hip.. ughh.. i jus slipped on a step okayy... shoes too old liao.. think i bot them last yr.. for b-u day.. yeahh. when was tt..? then we played uno and daidee and bridge for a while... with people tt i dun really know all the names... so better not write.. yeah.. then wen and i were trying to sleep again in the library with no success at all lorr.. then we built card pyramids again!! hahas. its so fun i tell you!! :) ohh.. and sab msged wen and said tt today she rach and maybe chuns. i dun remember were playin vball the whole day.. wen ask why you nv go lib and find us.. then sab said. you in sch meh? hahas.. wth.. wen was walkin with sabthis morning?!?! damn weird.. how can sabb be soo forgetful huhh?? then when i was at the bus stop was talkin to candice lahh.. she's applying for sa too.. :) then i saw sab wen rach chuns and wen walkin out.. sab was walkin with this weird guy frm her class.. hmms.. they were gonna go out together... sab... whats your relationship huhh??? yeahh. then afetr sch went to tp to eat.. i ordered two things but cldnt finish either.. its so like me to order more than i can finish.. hahas.. then everyone suddenly said my face is red cus the curry too hot or smth.. but it wasnt hot at all.. so i think it might be becus of the sentosa day.. yepp. then went to suntec walked ard abit and walked to ps.. omg.. and some of them wanted to walk to tanglin?! damn damn far.. so yq and i went to ps instead.. bot ice cream.. walked abit sat ard abit.. and bot my campbell soups!! soo damn happy i tell you!! hahas.. yayy!! and root beer.. gonna eat and drink it ltr.. hope no one kopes it!! if someone koped it.. i'll claim money back frm my mom!! yippiee.... hahas.. and on my way home... when i was in my hse the estate there liao some woman who wasnt even as tall as my shoulders came up to ME!! ME!!! and asked.. xiao mei mei...blah blah blah wth.. i very small huhhh.. she's soo dammit short.. and she strained her neck to look up at me and say xiao mei mei?! hahas.. abnit lame lehh..

yayy!! i jus remembered neo and the sentosa thing!!! yayy!! hahas.. so happy!! must hurry book the chalet thing k..?? yeahh... and dun do anything dumb like invite geraint or anything okayy... puii.. hahas.. and buy instant noodles!!! yeahh!!! for midnight snacks... :) and neo.. tell us how much to pay okay..??

argh fuck. my gastric hurts like shit.. urgghhh

today went to sch.. was late.. yepp.. went for econs and gp... hahas... kimchow also had 14 points.. wah sehs.. if he go to sa.. i think i'll go zhuang qiang lor.. can puke.. hahas.. and i jus realised he's damn old.. he's like what.. 19?!? and he still listens to his mom.. as in he said in class my mother said....... urghh.. dumb.. then after recess went to library and played uno... was too damn bored frm playing and fell aslp... yawns... damn tired mann.. hahas.. then when i woke up.. i saw fio there... got a lil shock! hahas.. yeahh.. and then after a while of uno we made card houses!! or pyramids! yeahh.. i made a small one.. wanted to make a bigger one.. but it kept collasping.. the i finally gave it up and smashed it.. and smashed joels shelter and the fengs guys dunno what.. yeahh. then yr's mom came to pick her up frm sch early after yr called her and lied to her and said got no lessons.. her mommy so gd horr!!! hahas.. then wen and i went to eat.. i ordered tomyam taste kinda bland... but okay lahh not that bad.. hahas..i've tasted worse in oi.. then went to watch movie... maid in manhatten!! hahas.. j lo's son in the show is damn damn damn damn cute lorr!!! omg.. i wan a bro like tt!!!! hahas.. he's soo dammit adorable!!!!! ohh and i jus realised a have a redish nose?!? as in this morning i jus tot it was my cheeks or smth.. but my nose?! rudolph the red nose reindeer... so cute!! but i'm not cute lahh.. aiyorr.. look so terrible.. hahas.. yeahh.. then i came home!!! yeahhh.. and i'm still having gastric now.. urghh.. i shd eat more huhh.. whether or not i'm hungry.. sian liao.. tmr also have nothing to do.. must ask ard!! :)

yummy! my dinner was yummy.... hahas.. but i'm still hungry!! oh noo.. HOW!?!? sian liao.. i must eat!!!!!! k.. ermm. today i went to sentosa... and went to swim in the sea.. for my first time ever!!! the water is too salty!! damn damn salty... so hard to swim cus i was being too busy pui-ing.. yeahh.. then watched people play volleyball.... and feeling slpy now.. not really in the blogging mood now lehh... anywayy.. see everyone in sch tmr!!!! :) wen.. bring uno okay?!? szuyu go sch you dumb fish.. yr.. go sch lah k...?? yayy!!! and wen... tmr go for gp lesson k.. cus i think the idiot jiaming will paotou me to the gp teacher again!!! urghh!!!!!

feelin a lil too confused now to blog..... dunno what to say.... blog tmr or smth...

i'm up... and its early... think smth is seriously wrong with me.. i cant wake up late anymore.. and i feel soo super slpy during the day.. ughhh.. and the show time is kinda late.. sian liao... hahas.. can stay at home and slack..


What obscure band are you?

so sian... tmr the movie's only at 4 plus?!?! so terrible... so late... what am i going to do for the earlier part of the day?!?!?!!!? hahas... wonder if they're having dinner out..

-screams- i think my tonsils are killing me... ughh

jus remembered smth damn gross... sab said kimchow was cute!!! hahas// she must be blind!!

some people shd jus know when to butt out and stop buggin everyone.. isnt it clear that no one likes you!?!?! stop thinking that you have many friends.. loser.. i'm not a piteous person.. and i dont have much pity... i'm more of a hyprocite and bitchy than anything else.. bugger...

i'm home early today.. :) went to ngee ann poly.. then went to singapore poly... sian mann.... woke up so early then felt so slpy the whole day.. then went to town.. then went to lido.. saw szuyu and shiping.. then saw esta and her frens... i only remember carmen! hahas.. all idiots.. i tot today alotta people cannot go sentosa... then i saw the two of them in town..? haiyorrr.. idiot.. then ltr went to arcade.. then went to burger king then went home!! and i'm super irritated with the cabbie lorr.. for my change he gave me EIGHT ten cent coins lorr.. bugger.. yeahh

oh sab!!! i got some gd news for you.. but dunno if its gd news for me lah.. if you wanna do arts in sa right.. based on last yrs pts.. l1r5 16 still got into sa.. so sab.. just try okay??? yeahh.. i think you can.. :)

man.. i woke up damn damn early.. i woke up at 8 exactly.. then hao bu rong yi then fell aslp then i got a phone call!!! i knew i shdnt have put my phone on not silent mode... -shakes head- woahhh jus saw j lo's with ll cool j.. all i have or smth?? on mtv.. yeahhh.. i think she's damn chio... only her face tho.. cus i think her butt is too big.... yeahhh.. her cheekbones damn prominent lorr.. its like two slash in her face.. hahas.. the song is not bad too.. hahas.. but she's damn chio!!!! but ben affleck's better looking!! think it must be becus i always tot he was shuai.. then only just then i tot j lo was chio.. omg.. if only i was half as chio!!!!!!! and jennifer garner!!!! wahh... another damn damn chio one.. hahas.. maybe nex time i'll name my daughter (if i have one) jennifer.. cus it seems that jennifers are always so pretty!!! hmms.. i'm gonna go out soon.. so i'll go get ready huhh.... blog more when i get home!! :)

qing ni zhi yao duo ai wo yi tian
bu xiang he ni shuo zai jian
wo yao ni xiang qi yi kai shi yong bao de gan jue
qing ni zhi yao duo ai wo yi tian
hai you xing fu de ji hui
da ying wo qing ni gei wo zhe ming yong yuan de shi jian

... not sure abt the last line lahhh.. but its sweet right?? the lyrics??

everybody!! go dl energy's duo ai wo yi tian!!! super nice.. at least to me lahh.. or i can send it to you.. whoever the 'you' is.... arghhh man u jus lost.. damn shit.. 2-0 how can it happen.... :(

so shit.. nobody going sentosa now.. urghhh... but i stil got plans for tmr.. hmms... hope i get to watch maid in manhatten!!! hope so!! :)

woahh... i sudddenly came to marvel how a spider can spin such long and thin strings of whatever you call in in a short time.. and climb up the string again so quickly.. cus there;s a bloody bug crawlin ard my com so quickly and danglin frm the headphones.. it is terrible!!!!! hahas.. i hate bugs!!!!!!

i wanna go sa... but... i dont think i can make it..... sighh.. HOWW.... at least szuyu and sab can appeal thru ccas.. rach got 12 pts.. can dotn appeal.. but ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arghhhh... i can jump down the building liao... :(

hmmms.. woke up somewhat early this morning.. seem to be slping damn early nowdays.. immediately konked out after putting the phone down.. for like what.. the past three nights..? dun even remember if i remembered to put the phone down ydae night.. must be too damn slpy.. but i dunno why.. i cant slp much these days.. keep waking up so early.. hmms.. feels so relaxed now.. ehhh.. tmr rach chuns and sab not going for the sentosa thing lehh.. so damn jian of them right.. puii.. they wanna go to their oi class thing.. and not our sn class.. irritating.. irritating!!!! but.. we're still going right? are we? and neo esta and wen.. are we still gonna watch marrying the mafia?? and does anyone at all.. wanna watch maid in manhatten?? i feel qte loserish.. hahas.. k.. maybe i'll dl it into my com and watch it instead.. sianned.. stayin at home the whole day today.. must try to sleep more!!!!! :) k... now i'll blog abt ydae....

at first tot was gonna stay at home and slack the day away.. but luckily. yr saved me!! hahas.. crap.. wen me and her went to town lorr.. at first i had to go temple.. so i met them ltr.. my daddy fetched me.. hahas.. help me save money.. then met them at far east.. then wen bot a top.. then ltr yr bought one to wear.. cus she said her shirt was too hot... but.. me? wo mei you qian mai yi fu ah!! oh yarr.. then at one time i was laughing at wens or yrs joke.. then suddenly i turned to look in front of me lahh.. then i was still smiling then i saw this weirdo who suddenly smiled at me too.. really weirdo type.. looks like mental patient lor.. eeyerr.. and it was alex.. you know the super chao ah beng... YUCKK!!!!!! then we went to many flash and splashes to look for wen's halter bra.. to sun tan in... in the end she bot this red red piece... yeahh.. this inspires me to buy somemore too.... :) hahas.. then we went to yoshinoya to sit and rest a lil.. then yr had to go.. and then i sorta walked with them to past orchard train station... then walked back to cine.. to meet yq.. i waited like what... ONE HOUR wah sehh.. wait until can die lor.. wait alone somemore.. ughh.. wah liews... damn damn damn long.. spent most of the time playing pinball on my hp.. sian ahh.. then ltr after he came i saw big nose!!!! da bi zi!!! frm 3 grace one.. okay now 4grace.. eeyerr.. grosteque!!! hahas.. tryin to act more intellectual!!! :) yeahh... then went to have lunch with his frens.. then went to j8.. omg.. i'm soo inspired to get a fighting fish!!! the one with long long long tails!!! hahas.. i want a red one!!!! why dont they have a pink one huhh?? WHYYYYY.... hahas... then walk ard abit.. then came home liaoo... yeahhh.. :)

today was a fun day... but a part of it was not.. hahas. the part where i saw someone i'd rather nv ever see again.. hahas.. too lazy to blog.. lalas.. blog tmr!

wahh.. today the first time yr jio me to go out with her lehh.. hahas. must mark it down!! OH NO!! my bro's bdae is this mth.. anyone else bdae is in this mth too? must say okay?? :) hahas..

yawns.. i'm damn tired.. but somehow i'm unable to sleep.. woke up at 8 plus today.. its so goddamned early.. ughhh... wo hao lei ahh!! then after i woke up.. i came to the com.. yepp.. then have been here ever since.. i'm terribly bored... hmms.. oh yarr... i rather go ac then go sa.. szuyu. rach... sabba.. go ac lahh.. pls!

neo.. can you dun be lame.. the thing taht you tot was cool is not cool? no matter what no. 2 digit no. you choose.. afta you substract the digits of the no. you'll get a multiple of nine.. did you notice that all the multiples of nine have th same symbol? except for 99.. becus you cannot get 99 for it is the highest possible 2 digit no. and 90.. becus you cannot get 90 after deducting a 9 and any other no. so its jus a ill-cheat-you-if-you-dont-think-clearly crap
hahas.. silly billy!

okayy.. i'm more back to earth right now.. hmms.. today i woke up at 11? went to sch at 2 plus?? tot i go there jus nice get my grades back.. only to realise the sch is trying to rob us!! idiot okayy.. wanted to rob everyone of 10 plus dollars? damn sucker.. lucky i smart! only pay 5 dollars! hahas.. then we had to go thru this damn long droning announcements on the amt of distinctions and crap.. then got this gd progress thing.. i dunno why they nv call anyone frm my class up lor.. damn idiotic okay.. i mean.. rach improved 12 points i think? kw improved 11? wth.. and they called sarah yan up.. she dint even improve ten??? what rubbishy crap.. the sch's jus biased against my class lahh.. and i'm so happy for neo neo!! she got 9 points!! she topped our class!! yippie! and grace! so proud of her.. she got 20? yeahh.. damn happy for her and neoneo! and sara too! she shd give her ten pts to me.. since she cant use it anyway... hahas.. she like gettin so damn much money cus of her distinctions?!?! wah sehs.. almost five figure sum lehh.. but... cannot be helped mahh.. rich people! hahas.. oh yarr. then we went to suntec.. wen left early.. cus no money.. no hp.. yeahh.. then we ate kenny rogers.. wahh. make me damn full! sighh. but i still haf the puky feeling after i eat.. WHY IS THAT? hahas.. i dunno! then we went back to town.. but neo left early.. hadta go celebrate with her fam.. me sta and kw went to take neoprint.. not nice one! hahas.. tmr when i free then i scan it into the com and then post it up on webpg then you'll get what i mean.. our uniforms the same color as the bg?!? damn terrible.. yeahh.. then we came home!

oh yarr.. and i forgot to say.. i'm so happy for myself! ahhh! so happy!! the first thing i noticed was.. i got an a2 for comb humans... ME?!? ME?!?!?! ME?!?!? hahas.. yeahh.. and i got b3 for lit?!? and a maths?!?! like what crap.. hahas.. i passed my hcl too!! wahhh.. dmn happy.. wont say much liao also.. feel qte bad.. :/ okayy.. thats all! i'm gonna use the fone right now... try to be back ltr and blog more..