ahhh. nelvin is so nice! cus i called him in the morn aft the gp papers ask him if he cld lend me his econs notes and photostat.. then he said he'd bring over for me tonight. as in i tot he was kinda jking type. and he's rly bringing for me! haah so nice! bring ter my hse here.. ahahah. WAH. damn nice...

ahh sheeesh. read yr's blog.. i guess.. its qte sad tt she's depressed... but i'm like abit jealous ler. :| ahhh.... ughh. ahh. i dunno what ter say. ahh jus tt i'm jealous. :| he hasnt made me laugh.. in like... AGES. jus smile. :) and.. the mood is like usually serious btwn us..... ahh.....

[[i love dt so much too...he always sets me str8..like i was just confused abt how i was thinking..]]
[[i love talking to dt...]]
quoted from yr's blog... duno rly know what ter say.. AHHHHHHHHHHH! its not good. :|

mmm. jus finished up my stupid lit essays.. haha. good night and good luck to the world! :)

anw. sab also got a tagboard damn long ago.. i got one qte long too. but nv used it.. cus.. haha. i cldnt figure out how ter use it!! :\ haha.

this could be love - alkaline trio

ive got a book of matches
ive got a can of kerosene
ive got some bad ideas, involving you and me
i dont blame you for walking away
i touch myself at thoughts of flames
i shat the bead and layed there in it
thinking of you, wide awake for days
wide awake for days
and i found you tounge tied
my twisted little brain
you couldnt crack a smile
i didnt catch your name
i dont blame you for walking away
id do the same if i saw me
i swear its not contagious
four short steps we can erase this

step one, slit my throat
step two, play in my blood
step three, cover me in dirty sheets and run laughing
out of the house
step four, stop at lake michigan and wrinse your crimson hands

you took me hostage and made your demands
i couldnt meet them so you cut off my fingers
one by one
one by one
im like a broken record
ive got a needle scratching me
it injects the poison of alchohol IV
i dont blame you for walking away
id do the same if i saw me
i swear its not contagious
i swear to god its not contagious

step one, slit my throat
step two, play in my blood
step three, cover me in dirty sheets and run laughing
out of the house
step four, stop at Berkley Marina and wrinse your crimson hands

you took me hostage and made your demands
i couldnt meet them so you cut off my fingers
one by one

this could be love
(love for fire)
this could be love
(love for fire)
this could be love
for fire, for ever more

step one, slit my throat
step two, play in my blood
step three, cover me in dirty sheets and run laughing
out of the house
step four, stop off at pittsburg peir and wrinse your crimson hands

you took me hostage and made your demands
i couldnt meet them so you cut off my fingers
one by one
one by one

ahh this song is cute! and happy despite sounding dark! go listen or smth! haha.

ahh. my maid spoilt my mng top.. the nice big big loose looseone. :( and my moms cardigan.. its like new la. nina ricci one. and she like keep crying.. haha. qte funny la. keep saying she'l pay for the clothes. haha.. how ter go buy a new top right. its in hk!?! haha. and my moms cardigan is like.. half her pay?! crazy. :| UGH. stupid sian. shit. argh.

anw this is like a new template la. somewhat matching the rainbow blog thing! hahah. lala. i think its damn alike ler... :)

boredddd! no ones at home again.. :/ at least i can use the comp. sian. mid yrs starting ler. sucky. anw.

next fri - estas bdae the six of us!
next sat - sentosa. everyone go okay!!!
next sunday... anyone wanna go out? i'm qte happy tests are over. must go out before the results come back! hahahah.

woahh! nv use the com for damn long.. when i use.. blogger looks soo cute! haha. as in. more up ter date la! :) nice change i guess..

mm. went ter dfs for shopping with my mom since like 9 in the morning.. damn tired lerr.. bot qte alot of stuff...
1 t shirt 2 tops 1 sweater like thing tts damn tight! um. 1 skirt 1 pants watch wallet perfume. givenchy only! i think its vv nice! and qte cheap too. 58 i think. :) umm.. the m)phosis slipper sandal thing!! sab. hurry go buy yours! foundation.. and earrings. haha not bad la i think.. :) dfs got alotta sale! haha. my mom like bot 6 ties! then only 270+ haha. amazing lor. as in. ya. its like. 70% discount la. haha.

anw the past few days went ter chuns house ter study.. with sab and rach.. wen ter collect my waller from the police station.. haha. the person returned me my wallet. my ic my ezlink and my money! like... WOW. haha. haha. and the day before went ter watch charlie's angels full throttle. with sab rach chuns huat. jeremy and yq pangsehed us ter watch with ngee ann people.... haha sab said they agreed ter watch with us last week. SO idiot. and then went ter sabs house... yeahh.... not bad la. haha. we did qte fun things!! haha. but secretive!!

anw i just tot of smth damn weird la. the elevens blog thing... can be like.. changed ter the fives? sixes? dunno. haha. i guess. mb its premature i guess. but. ya. :/

What's your usual [mood]?

mm got home. went ter meet sab rach wen aft lunch today. cus i was too broke to have lunch outside. when we went there. they were at this fan wei qi thing. she/'s qte ke lian la. :/ haha. but anw. i think she's chio. :) and then we slacked ard. wasted alot of money on photohunt stuf. til rach got chased out cus her shirt had this tiny nanyang jc thing. :/ how lame. anw. rach and sab then went for training. then me wen went ter town ter nokia care. but anw. it was ridiculous la. cus we waited damn long. only ter find out. tt it was for nth. ugh. then we slacked ard. walked and saw qte alot of weird people! haha. as in ya. mb wen'l blog abt it. i'm lazy.. anw. ya. then aft tt went ter amk ter watch bball. then i left early ter have dinner wit my parents, came home same time as my bro. :)

went ter town with sab and rach today. then we had yoshinoya for lunch. rach and i waited for 2 o clock to save money. haha. then sab ate first. then yongquan came. then jeremy came. then like went ter arcade ter play for abt an hour plus. then walked aimlessly. then went ter coffee bean. where i lost my wallet again. ugh. like 2 wallets. in 3 days. stupid stupid stupid me. and my ic and ezlink was inside this time round. :/ sian. then went ter police ter report. but tt super smart police guy went ter say tt dont hafta report. ya. jus go make new one. then go ter transit link place. that woman nv cancel for me. jus give me some form. like huh?! WEIRD! then went ter bk and went home. yepp. rach's dad was like. super screwed. but she's fine now anw.

sian. anw think recently i'm have pms. haha not pre but post! :/ smtimes happy smtimes sad. :/ ydae was a weird day for me.. have no idea. my emotions were like running rampant.. today.. was qte weird. as in. i lost my ic and stuf but i was concerned wit payin adult price for ezlink. haha. lame! :/ find myself gettin crazier. guess i shant be jealous and stuff abt ridiculous stuff... yeaa. deleted evidence of my wrong frame of mind. haha. ter act innocent.

sigh. mom is fuckin me up. ugh. seriously. she whacked me again. :/ hope nths bruised. :/

anw. the song's nice. damn old. but everyone go dl k. if you havent yet. :/ meanignful lyrics.

best i ever had - vertical horizon

*so you sailed away into a grey sky morning
now i'm here ter stay love can be so boring

nothings quite the same now..
i jus say your name now...

+but its not so bad.
you're only the best i ever had
you dont want me back
you're jus the best i ever had

so you stole my world now i'm just a phony
remembering the girl leaves me down and lonely
send it in a letter mk yourself feel better...

and it may take some time ter patch me up inside
bt i can't tk it so i run away and hide
and i may find in time tt you were always right
you're always right

*

what was it you wanted
cld it be i'm haunted..?

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ah shit. jus remem. i lost my bag at milieu! with my wallet. and my make up!! :( my eye brow pencil... :( sigh!

today was qte sian.. woke up late. some girl called me... and woke me up.. so dint go ter sch.. went out with g wong. rach sab and wen.. at first went ter arcade. but mr wong dint wanna go so we went and met up with him ltr.. went ter sakae for sushi buffet..ate til we were damn full.. tried so many thousand things.. wen and i ate super alot of ama ebi!! haha. then went ter coffee bean ter pass time.. we played bridge too.. :) and watched the hulk. :/ lame show. damn draggy.. :/ haha at least he treated us ter the show and coffee bean. :)

ydae sab woke me up.. then went ter suntec ter meet wen sab and chuns. and huat. then walked ate yami yogurt! :) and walked. went ter gelares ter sit and slack then went ter read mags at tower records.. and then went ter aljunied ter watch bball match. met evita there. nv see her for damn long!! :) anw. then went ter town then went ter milieu. alot of ex stnicks people there. went in abt 9 plus. so it was damn lax. the bouncer asked me what was my ic. i cldnt think of ath. jus went 86. no 846. no. 8246 or smth like tt. haha. and he stil let me in. dint drink much. kuek huiying stacey wei sabk and mar were there.. smth gross happened ter my feet. like puke splashin ard.. danced on the podium thing. they dint allow guys and butches ter dance up there! haha. :/ went ter induz3 for a while. dint go in tho. then went back ter milieu. left abt 230 tho i said i was leaving at 1130.. mom super kb me..

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sighh.. jus watched some tv show.. dunno whats it abt. some chinese show.. and there was this guy saying tt like in marriage or in any kinds of relationship there shd be some form of complementing.. as in. if one party is stubborn and fierce etc. the other shd be givin in tt kind... mb tt's why dap and i kinda quarreled alot. :/ haha. qte sian now.. wonder if i shd go out tmr durin the day.. :/

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and a new template.... here
kinda bored.. but kinda happy too! :)

in a starry mood now! played with photoshop and made some pics! qte cute i think.. :)

bored! went ter sch. have macs breakfast again. and slacked. and came home! chinese is okay! :) can slp all i want! :) if only sch was like tt. i slpt the first 2 hrs then we had oral prac.. haha. i was so damn nervous lorr. cus he say until like my oral is qte gd like tt. haiyor.. STRESS. ahah. fumbled like maddd!

happy shalala!
its so nice ter be happy!

mmm. saw marcus nel pau and peishan on my way home.. and went down ter my house there for their bbq.. dint eat only drank. yuckks. gin and coke makes a terrible combi. :/ haha then they went swimming.. i cldnt swim.. dammit. :/ then when i said i was going home. they all suddenly got up frm the water ter hug me.. and got me all wet.. :/ and i was wearin a white shirt summore.. :| haha but qte fun la i guess..

i dont need ter be much
just supermans biggest fan..
and this hero's little girl.. :)

went ter sch on time.. but lao shi was late by half hr.. we were so hungry tt we asked him ter let us off fer a long break.. haha. and he did.. nice of him huhh. angela serena amelia joy marcus isabella vicc and me went ter harbour front ter get food... most of us bot macs. and went back and ate during lessons. haha. then i fell aslp.. so fat! :/ and then. when i woke up he dismissed us ler..
then went ter bugis ter meet dan.. and we watch finding nemo! :) the cinema was noisy!!! even noisier than me... :/ then we jus walked ard bugis alot... haha.. nemo was nice...! was supp ter go back st nicks. but wen they all werent.. so i dint.. :/ dan had ter go off early.. so he went back..
then went ter town ter meet wen huat sab rach chun and their fren and jeremy. yepps. went ter look for a place ter sit. went ter coffe club express.. at sandwiches and wen bot a drink. so did sab. then walked ard wisma.. and came home.. oh ya. think rach saw wendy heng and her new bf. wendy heng sucks la.. this thurs gonna meet geraint i think. and weds i guess i'm going ter milieu.. dunno ler.. abit feel like not going.. wonder if i shd. but tmr!! tmr.. what shd i do..? wens playing ball... with sn bball people.. haha. dun rly feel like seein them tho. i dunno why! mmm. anyone else wanna do smth else? :) msg me!
and the super duper cute host is sean william scott or smth! ahh. so cuteee! :) and i jus realised smth quite coincidental!
Daphne Tan : Daniel Tan
yongquans surname is also tan right? haha... qte amazing. daphnes chinese name also starts with Y. ahah.

omg.. i like jus watched mtv movie awards jus now.. was being hosted by justin timberlake and this other really really cute guy! hafta know his name! :) plus he's kinda comedian type.. ahh... -swoons- haha. and there were so many hot guys.. colin farrell.. ashley kuston? dunno.. the jus married guy! ahh.. beckham.. mike wahlberg? the 2 fast 2 furious guy.. paul walker or smth.. omg.. the guys were absolutely super duper sexyy... i was like being treated ter this feast for my orbs! haha. esp the unknown host! he's so funny! and cute too! bet if he wears specs.. he'l even look smart! ahh. my ideal guy! :)

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Dark Side of your Zodiac Sign

Capricorn (dec 22 - jan 19)
You are rather materialistic and it is fueled by your fears of financial disaster. this makes you complain about monetary woes, irritating many with your obnoxious attitude. you can also be a social climber, manipulating your way up the ladder; name-dropping all the way to the top. once in a while, you'll have morbid thoughts about death something that scares you because you have no control over it. you tend to be obsessive about your mortality sometimes.

Aquarius (jan 20 - feb 18)
You tend to be too idealistic and naive sometimes. practicality gets thrown out of the window by you many times. cool and aloof, you rarely want to deal with deep emotions. you like to give advice but don't like to receive it. and ideas and inspirations that you sometimes neglect or follow through with them are constantly bombarding you. or else you are constantly shifting focus, giving people the idea with no staying power.

Pisces (feb 19 - mar 20)
You are an escapist - you have this knack of avoiding issues if they seem unpleasant. you delve into past memories to escape your present woes. there is also a tendency towards alcoholism and even drug abuse - you are on a search for some kind of 'high'. you also love to flirt and too much of it may send the wrong, dangerous signals out to other people. once in a while, a dark mood will descend on you and you become rather unsociable and withdrawn.

Aries (mar 21 - apr 20)
A warrior at heart, you thrive on challenges and any strife and dramas, you are tempted to stir things up, just to keep yourself happy. you are also rather intolerant of mistakes and don't have patience for weakness or failings in others. and sometimes, you can be quite a snob as well you like to be seen at the right places or wear the right clothes. and you're also prone to bossiness. your restless nature may make you quit a project suddenly if you can't sustain the interest.

Taurus (apr 21 - may 20)
You are stubborn and like to hold onto things, not wanting to let go of anything or anyone. you are slow to anger, but when you do get worked up to a rage - everyone step aside! you also have a selfish streak and can be quite sneaky as well. and although people may see you as helpful and agreeable, you sometimes have an inner struggle wanting the approval of others while sticking to your own opinions. you also tend to be suspicious of others and question their motives.

Gemini (may 21 - jun 21)
Your devil-may-care attitude sometimes could bring harm to yourself - you tend to live on the edge sometimes. many of you believe that you don't deserve success, somehow feeling guilty for it. you may give others too much of yourself sometimes that you lose yourself. you may be prone to suppressing motions as well. and at times that makes it difficult for you to accept affection and love.

Cancer (jun 22 - jul 22)
You can get carried away with emotions - your anger is overwhelming and your sadness can depress all those around you. you're also ultra-sensitive to other people's emotions and are affected by these as well. you tend to react before you think and then brood about what you may have done or said wrong. you are also prone to periods of morbidity, thinking dark thoughts. feelings of insecurity creep in now and then, making you snappish or else you try to win the approval of everyone at your expense.

Leo (jul 23 - aug 22)
On the rare occasion you lose your temper, you can turn into a savage beast. you seem to need an audience as well, to help boost your confidence and ego, sometimes. other times, you get caught up in the outward dramas of your life that you neglect what you're feeling inside. this results in a delayed reaction when emotions sneak up on you and you get hit with a whammy. you also tend to be proud and aggressive, cloaking these with your charm. when things don't go your way, you get impatient and may even throw a tantrum.

Virgo (aug 23 - sep 22)
You have a martyr complex, feeling that you were put on this earth to do good work and not receive any credit for it. you tend to be ultra critical of yourself and others and you also worry about things that are beyond your control. a little pessimistic sometimes, you tend to be an intellectual snob. you bottle up all your insecurities and fears, and hesitate to reach out for help. and once in a while, you become a busybody that's when you also feel responsible for other people's problems.

Libra (sep 23 - oct 23)
Your inability to reach a decision in matters of personal action is legendary. you like to weigh all the alternatives and hear every side of an argument - but this may take time and opportunities may pass you by because of it. you also like to expand energy on people who may not deserve it - you want to help the underdog. you are also sensitive to criticism and may take mild statements of fact very personally.

Scorpio (oct 24 - nov 21)
You have a revengeful streak and a long memory for past hurts. sometimes you're downright spiteful. when you suffer, you make sure others suffer along with you. sometimes, you may even use deception to get what you want and to influence others to stay out of your way. you may even believe these untruths and unrealistic fears will grow on you. once in a while, you may come across someone that just rubs you on the wrong side for no apparent reason and you make it your mission to bury him or her.

Sagittarius (nov 22 - dec 21)
You've got a big mouth and unwittingly hurt an insult people with it. you can even go to utter strangers and give unsolicited advice and comments. you also seem to enjoy verbal duels with others whenever you can. and you sure can make sore losers, even suspecting foul play if things don't go your way. you have a knack for confrontation and you can't resist being sarcastic. you also don't think too much of many people, because you have mild superiority complex. vanity is also a trait in many of you.




mine is damn true lor!!!! haha omg. really damn damn true! as in scorpio. also.. capricorn pisces gemini cancer sagittarius! omg. i'm like a terrible example of a person! haha.

oh no... its fathers day tmr!! i havent bot my daddy a card yet.. :( how forgetful of me...!!! argh.. and my stupid period cramps are killing me ler. :(

argh. my moms such a bitch.. keep callin home and say help her see this help her check that. so damn irritating. keep making me lose my puzzle bobble and distract me from everything. then now shes like complain abt everything. bitch and shes jus gettin on my case cus i dint wrap the fathers day present.. WHAT IS HER FUCKIN PROBLEM. ughh. and my dads leaving fer china tmr...... what a dumb company. on fathers day. in the morning. to hongkong then china. the stupid sars place. ughh.and what a dumb mother. and she keep complain i'm jus slackin away. if i went out today i would also not be doing my work right. i'll jus be in front of the damn com for few hours lesser?! fucked up la.

mmm went ter watch ju-on today.. what a stupid sucky show.. wasnt even scarey! haha.. was qte funny in fact...went sch in the morn. freaking hell got my period at like 9am! wtf. gave me cramps at the end of the day lorr. ARGH. then aft chi had econs. then me cand vicc went ter queensway macs. sort of with two of vics frens.. marcus ad ta yu[?].. yaa. slacked ard.. talked.. crapped.. joked qte alot. met rach chuns yongquan then ltr jeremy came. went ter buy tickets.. saw suzy.. saw her frens the chevy or whoever.. dunno who gave me the impression that he was shuai la.. :/ hahah. umm. yaa... then sab came.. then wen and huat.. then watch ju-on la. umm aft tt we walked ter find rachs frens.. kareen or smth.. who tot yongquan was cute. or was it shuai? umm. then went ter heeren.. saw ve char and bunch.. haha. remember last yr got this period of time.. i was relatively kinda close ter vera one.. but er.. now? haha.. then wen and huat went back. then walked abit more rach and chuns went back then went ter cine foodcourt ter eat.. also talked alot there.. haha yongquan and jeremy made their camp seem quite fun! haha.. then saw daniel. and in ri oi and now vj one.. haha he looks weird.. mb cus of his jacket.. it doesnt look him.. but he was wearing specs! yaa. dint even say hi.. :/ felt weird.. :( then reached home ten plus lor.. not bad laa.

mmm. did i mention i think tt guys usually dont wear specs look kinda sexy when they wear specs..? haha. no specific references!! but i jus think so! they look smarter! and intelligence in a guy is qte impt i guess.. ter me la. hahah.

three things i hate...
-ter feel depressed.. cus i guess it makes people i talk ter feel.. not good? sighh dunno.. :/
-ter want ter know smth then aft i know what it is.. then get all screwed and sad.. :(
-ter be alone..

three things i love..
-ter feel loved and appreciated
-people ard me i guess
-a strong and warm surge of happiness... :)

three things i cant do without
-my hp
-my com
-people ard me..

three things i wish i had
-new com
-ter be happy again
-super good figure!

three things i wish i dint have
-a brain
-fats
-school..

three things i feel like doing
-getting drunk
-getting high
-sleep

three places in the world that i want to live at
-orchard!
-holland v
-dunno.. jus stay in sg..

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err.. this is kinda lame..

argh. i'm so tired of life. dammit. wont someone come and kill me tonight.... :(

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there's a light in your eyes i used ter see
there's a place in your heart where i used to be
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i wld like ter say that i
nv meant ter make you cry
i think abt you everyday
no matter what your friends might say
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sighh. i dunno much.. but i guess.. i jus cant stay at home all day.. i'd drive myself nuts.. :( its only been two hours at home without anything ter do.. and i'm alrdy so fucked up and depressed. i dunno how i'm gonna like.. live my stupid life out.. i guess no one'll understand.. but.. i jus cant move on.. because i guess. i dunno.. i guess. i still love you too much to let go.. i dunno lahh. sigh. i'm so damn fucked up. cant someone help me out of this chasm i fell into. pull me out of this deep pit of misery i'm burying myself in. i guess it gets me down ter see people so happy with their s.o. sighh.. and it hurtsmore ter know you're tellin someone else what you used ter tell me... all those sweet words. and gestures. sigh... i am so fucking myself up. arghh. :(

ripped this off wens page... :/

DESCRIBE YOUR...

Wallet : err. black.. leather and umm.
Hairbrush : the body shop one. same one as rach and dunno who else... haha but i two now.. one old and dirty one new and clean!! :)
Toothbrush : its white and orange. and oral b too! wen.. our toothbrushes are similar!
Jewellery worn daily : my necklace la..?
Pillow cover : maroon right now.. i think..
quilt cover : maroon on one side.. other side is some dark and dull pink checked thing... its vv old ler. but i love it!
Cup : the tatty teddy one.. and this smile angel one.. and this really huge mug..
Sunglasses : haha i think i have qte alot but i dont wear one.. :/
Shoes : err. i got new shoes! nike and white some kinda red and some kinda blue.. and adidas shoe.. and 2 of my old nike shoes and 2 pairs of 3-in heels one 1 1/2 in heels and slippers i guess...
Handbag : i got only one handbag la.. the rest.. is hang on shoulder one.. are they counted?
Favorite shirt : err.. to wear ter slp then my is my black givenchy shirt i guess.. to wear out.. i guess its my newest shirts la..
Cologne/Perfume : gucci - envy | ck - crave | and my cheap moschino perfume! :) and some others..
Cd in your stereo : err. some cd someone wrote fer me..
Tattoos : none
Piercings : haha this is pathetic.. but i've got one ear hole.. dunno if its still there tho..
What you are wearing now : daphs quiksilver sleeveless top and some weird shorts that are huge.. but very comfy..
Hair : err.. shoulder length i guess.. blackk... :(
Makeup : right now... none on!
In my mouth : tongue..?
In my head : empty..?
Wishing : for stuff ter happen.. and stuff ter work out.
Is next to you : my bro!
Some of your favorite movies : all abt the same la i guess....
Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month : not really.. in fact.... nothing..
The last thing you ate : ben and jerrys.. cookie dough!
Something that you are deathly afraid of : alot.. :(


Do you like candles : not really...
Do you like hot wax : okay la... it hurts.. but it works better at least.. :) anyone knows where ter get it..?i need it sooon... :/
Do you like incense : no.. it kinda stinks...
Do you like the taste of blood : not really..
Do you believe in love : yeahh...
Do you believe in soul mates : yeah.
Do you believe in love at first sight : er.. no...
Do you believe in Heaven : yeahh. but there;s no way i'm getting there i guess..
Do you believe in forgiveness : yaa..
What do you want done with your body when you die : buried...
Who is your worst enemy : i guess... myself....?
If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be : another hamsie... pearl winter white or smth like tt.. :)
What is the latest you've ever stayed up : err... 6am.
Ever been to Belgium : nooo
Can you eat with chopsticks : ya. duhh.
What's your favorite coin : chocolate!
What are 5 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to : california new york switzerland.. okay. its a cty..i wanna go where the alps is... :) paris venice
What are some of your favorite pig out foods : ice cream.. chilli stuff..
What's something that you wish people would understand : me..?
Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time : yaa..

Which M & M are you?

-surrender-anticipation-glimmer-love-

mmmm. got home damn early today.. went ter meet esta abt 11 in far east bk.. was a lil late tho. but she was with her cj frens la.. tavia and her max and this other girl.. yaa.. then we went ter scotts food court ter eat ban mian.. walked ard then went ter lido ler. haha. town was crawling with cj people... umm felt really damn tired.. must be cus i woke up too damn early.. for 3 days ler.. :( then we slacked alot.. wen came ter join us. with huat of cus. then played cards for a while then went home ler.. not bad ler. i spent 10 dollars.. :)

sighh. i dunno why.. but why does everyone always suan me.. i dunno.. i guess i'm kinda sick and tired of sayin so bad.. so evil so many times.. i;m kinda sick of being stupid.. and fat and everything. mb if it were someoen else of smth. then they might take it better.. but to me.. i'm really so sick of everything.. inclusive of living i suppose. why am i so suicidal.. :(

i'm lying alone with my head on the phone
thinking of you till it hurts
i know you hurt too but what else can we do
tormented and torn apart

i wish i could carry your smile in my heart
for times when my life seems so low
it would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
when today doesn't really know
doesn't really know

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im all out of love
i'm so lost without you
i know you were right
believing for so long
i'm all out of love
what am i without you
i can't be too late to say
i was so wrong

i want you to come back and carry me home
away from these long, lonely nights
im reaching for you
are you feeling it too
does the feeling seem oh so right


and what would you say if i called on you now
and said that i cant hold on?
there's no easy way
it gets harder each day
please love me or i'll be gone
i'll be gone

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cldnt blog for ydae.. cus.. came home then cldnt use the com ler la. :\ ydae went ter meet wen and huat in the aft. then went ter meet sab.. then played bridge.. flew kite.. bowling.. etc. sigh so sad.. shant bowl with them anymore ler.. :/ make me so zi bei.. think i got 91.. and i'm like the last place... :( then went ter play bishibashi.... altho i sucked at it.. i stil tot it was fun! hahaa. then went ter bishan food court to have lunch. yepp.

today woke up at like 1030.. ughh. had lunch at marina mandarine again..i like jus went on sat..!?! haha. ate at the peach blossom place this time. the food there is damn good ler!!!! everyone shd go ter eat there! i like their carrot cakee! no la. act. their dimsum is nice.. the food.. not so. ya. then went shopping.. bot new shoes.. and jacket-ty top and top and skirt. yepp.. nth really much tt i like lor.. ohh. also saw loh li eng today.. she nv put make up.. then look qte haggard.. i guess. i miss st nicks.. i duno. like i figure i'd rather get scolded by her than miss k or smth.. :/

pat: i lazy ter put my new templates up in my webpg i guess. this one got no links.. cus i dunno where to put so many links.. yaa.

oh noo. was talkin ter roy.. then he said smth like.. tt time he cant stay for wens bdae dinner is cus smth like his mom dont let him.. cus tt time went ter max hse and i totally reeked of alcohol.. then his mom fetched me home... oops! sorry!!! ahh. shitt. :/

tk finding nemo quiz.

damn sian.woke up damn early this morning.. then mr silas was being dumb.. he said i looked sick. then he wanted ter not let me into the sch... made me tk temp and everything.. lame. i was only 36.9.. then had ter wait damn long for candice ter come ter school on time.. had instant mee for breakfast.. did a lil of pw. mostly about me complaining abt how hot the cafe was.. haha. i'm so... haha. umm then went ter see lee lian choo. stayed til abt 10plus. then we all zaoed.. cand and i ran for the stupid bus like couple of mad woman.. ahah. then i'm home ler..
ltr gonna go fly kite i hope... :)

bloggers working again! umm. went ter watch how to lose a guy in 10 days... qte not bad. i recommend everybody ter watch it! dunno why but i kinda smiled alot during the movie.. weird huhh. mb they were kinda swt i guess. :/ then aft went home then went fer family dinner. dunno why celebrate fathers day so early.. guess its cus my aunt wil be in laos or smth and my dad has ter be in china or smth.. so sucky. i dont want my daddy ter go china.. :(

jus started feelin a lil confused now bout some stuff tt was said ydae.. ugghhh... sighh. dunno what to do.. i dunno what ter think.. and dunno what ter say... arghh. this so sucks. :( hope i sort out my thoughts and feelings and stuf soon. :/

anw went ter catch phone booth today.. colin farrell is so shuai! ahah. and he acted quite well i think! haha. :) yaa. then jus walked ard abit. saw grace too. so damn freakin skinny! :| i wanna lose weight ter be like her too! :) umm. yaa. new template up btw..

todays date.. 060603..

a year ago..

xx 060602 xx
xx 1619hrs xx

:)

dont be sad it ended be glad it happened

i'll nv forget. :) \

i pretend tt i'm glad you went away
these four walls closing more everyday
and i'm dying inside
and nobody knows it but me

like a clown i put on a show
the pain is real even if nobody knows
and i'm crying inside
and nobody knows it but me


why dint i say the things i needed to say
how cld i let my angel get away
now my world is jus tumbling down
i can see it so clearly but you're nowhere ard


the nights are lonely the days are so sad
and i keep thinking abt the love tt we had
and i'm missing you
but nobody knows it but me


i carry your smile while i'm broken in two
and i'll know bt you tt if theres someone like you
i'm trembling inside
and nobody knows it but me


lie awake jus a quarter past 3
i'm screaming and i nv tot you'd hear me
my hearts calling you
and nobody knows it but me


how blue can i get
you cld ask me heart
but like a jigsaw puzzle
its been torn all apart


billion words cldnt say
just how i feel
a million years from now
i'll be lovin you still


the nights are lonely the days are so sad
and i keep thinking abt the love tt we had
and i'm missing you
but nobody knows it but me

my heart's at a low
i'm so much to manage
i think you should know that
i've been damaged
i'm falling in love
yhere's one disadvantage
i think you should know that I've been damaged

keyboard got stolen by my mom ydae. umm. went ter sch.. dint slp.. then went ter town.. had lunch with class people.. then went ta meet kuek.. walked ard.. met some of her frens ltr in the day... mm ya. then went ta have dinner.. then came home ler. slpt til ard 11. ughh. :/

today.. i dint slp eitherr. sch was terribly boring.. umm. yaa. aft pe.. which was aft sch la. went ta ikea ter eat and jus slack with cand and vicc... we like.. err. bitched damn alot i think.. haha.. ya. then umm. went home ler. bored.. tmr supp to go back st nicks one. stupid chuns. cheat me la. tmr like no one going back ler. i still wanna see kang lerr. my money!!

mmm.. new template.... --->here<---

woke up early again this morning.. cus of my idiot hp.. vibrated too damn much.. and it was only a msg.. like.. ERR.. deprived of slp ler.. :/ then watched loads of tv.. haha.. nickelodeann!!! :) i love cartoonns!!! spongebob!! and rugrats!!! :)