Everything I know, it's nothing til I give it to you;

Lyrics SPAM ahead.
Been listening to tonnes of Air Supply songs
For the past days.
All it has served to do,
Is to make me feel depressed.
The AS songs which I like better are all depressing.
Here comes one..
Which is depressing, but not too much.


I Can Wait Forever

When you say I miss the things you do,
I just wanna get back close again to you.
But for now your voice is near enough.
How I miss you, and I miss you love.
And though all the days that pass me by so slow,
all the emptiness inside me flows all around,
and there's no way out.
I'm just thinkin' so much of you.
There was never any doubt.

I can wait forever if you say you'll be there too.
I can wait forever if you will.
I know it's worth it all to spend my life alone with you.

When it looked as though my life was wrong,
You took my love and gave it somewhere to belong.
I'll be here when hope is out of sight.
I just wish that I was next to you tonight.
And oh, I'll be reaching for you even though
You'll be somewhere else, my love.
We'll go like a bird on its way back home.
I could never let you go.
And I just want you to know.

Where are you now,
along with the thoughts we share?
Keep them strong somehow.
And you know I'll always be there.

:(

Quiz time


Congratulations! You know both your Tolkien and
your Peter Jackson. May I call you a fellow
Lord of the Rings geek?


How Well Do You Know Your Lord of the Rings?


Well well.
I still want to go for the stupid exhibition.
Won't anyone go with me?

I don't know much, but
I know I love you;

God. I'm bored.
My pimples are popping out again.
I think they simply enjoy coming on weekends.
I don't know why.

Nothing very substantial to say
'Cause I just blogged in my LJ.
See? I said I wouldn't let it die..
One of the few few promises I made to myself
which I kept. Hmm.
Is that self-deprecation?
I shouldn't doubt so.

So anyway,
Something to make me smile... :)


:)

Perhaps

would that i didnt see the tear fall,
i might have been able to walk away;
would that i never saw you turn around to hide your eyes,
i might have been able to forget i ever loved you.
but now that ive seen the tear,
seen your griefstriken eyes,
how could i bear to leave the one
whom i love and who loves me beyond a doubt.
to stay would hurt you, to leave would break you,
perhaps, if i stayed, i could
wipe the tears before theyd fall,
soothe the fears before they took over.

perhaps, perhaps.


I'm bored.
Very. Heh.
Made a new wallpaper with a poem..
*points up*
Still bored.

Remind us how we used to be;

I suppose everyone's watching soccer right now,
I'm so bored.
Didn't go down in the end,
because, well, no one wanted to change so that
we could sit in the VIP seats.
And I don't want to sit with the cheering masses..
And since no one has asked me out,
I'm pretty much, at home. :)
Not that it's not good, but just,
There's nothing much to surf right now..

Ohmy. I was looking at the older photos on my com,
And there are some photos that,
Um, strike me as REALLY WEIRD
Now that I'm looking at it in retrospect.
Really Weird. With a capital W.

I'm hungry,
But I don't know for what..
I don't know when I should do my rerun for 2.4
Sigh. :(

I couldn't believe my eyes;

Ahh,
Blogging for the sake of blogging again.
I think I may have lost my newest entry.
I couldn't see it on my blog
While I visited it a while back.
Oh well.
I've got bad news,
I failed my 2.4 again.
It's so horribly embarrassing..
Actually, it isn't,
I just like to dramatise everything.

Had quite an intelligent conversation with Neo,
Until the moment she ruined it
by making quite a hilarious comment.
Haha. More pictures! :)




(:

For so long;

I'm so very sleepy.
Almost fell asleep just now,
but my mom woke me for dinner.
Okay,
Now I'm going to hunt for sappy love song lyrics.
Bet I could come up with a few as well..
:)
Aiights. Off I go! :)

I didn't believe;

> WARNING

xiujuan is radioactive. Wear protective clothing at all times.

Username:

From Go-Quiz.com

Oooh. I'm radioactive. (:

I was dying inside to hold you
Couldn't believe what I felt for you
Dying inside, I was dying inside,
But I couldn't bring myself to touch you...
Heard this over the radio,
And it's been stuck in me ever since.. (:

Veil that falls away;

Blogger is screwed up,
I have to keep refreshing to view my blog,
And I can see the partial idiot adverts on my blog,
So I removed my blocking thing,
To view the WHOLE idiot ad on my blog,
I'm nutsnutsnuts.

Today was a bad day,
For many reasons.
Shan't elaborate too much also,
On the bright side,
ManU are the FA cup Champs :)

Oh Mr postman..

Chanced upon this sorta-book-quiz like thing,
Where you highlight the books you've read out of a really long list.
Mmm. Go check it out..

HERE!

I'm just too bored..

:)

Communion _{by Viggo Mortensen}

This after seeing you
Last night, first time
Smelling you with
Permission, shoulders to
Wonder openly at
As carefully kissed
As those arems
Waited impossibly on.
They've held me now
And your breath
Down my back
Sent away night air
That had me shaking
In the unlit Anglican
Doorway.


I'm just so bored.
Lit is boring the pants off me.

Turned your back on her;

I just felt like blogging a little more. Prose style this time round. :) I had just went to my bedroom to get my Lit text, and checked my handphone. Serena had like called and messaged me about the Fatty's cake, and well, I had been sleeping while the phone was ringing. Well, right now there's no cake. But well, asked Nelvin to get it, and umm, hopefully he can get it, if not Monday's fine too. After all, one cake, for 3 purposes. Hah. The Fatty's, Nelvin's, Angela's bdae all in one! Me and my save money tactics for the class fund. Money doesn't grow on trees you know! Heh. I sound like a stingy bastard now.

Everything seems quite far away and dull. Doesn't feel as though I'm living, but more of watching someone else's life. As though I'm experiencing, but not really feeling. Does it make sense? I don't know. It doesn't have to anyway.

I should avoid deep thinking, or rather, any sort of thinking at all. Stick to shallow schoolgirl swooning, because I won't be a schoolgirl for long. :/ It's sad, to see the best years of your life slip past so quickly. Damn, something so cheesy is stuck in my head, "Like sands through the hourglass, so are the Days of Our Lives". Sad, but true. Life is but fleeting. Gahh. I should listen to my own advice.

I watched you crash and burn;

School was fine,
Everything is fine.
I just have absolute MOUNTAINS of work to get done.
I feel SO like sleeping
And forget about it.
But I think I'll try my hand out at Lit first.
If not, I'm going to screw my Silas Marner exams up.
:(
Quiz results ahead!
But first...


Ahh. The men of Troy.. But what is that Greek doing here.. :

You're a Speak & Spell!! You nerd, you. Just
because you were disguised as a toy doesn't
mean you weren't educational, you sneaky
bastard.


What childhood toy from the 80s are you?

My King, Your King, THE King;

All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost.
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.
From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring.
Renewed shall be blade that is broken.
The crownless again shall be King.

The King.. The King..

The crownless,


The KING! :)


I'm like continuously posting pictures unto my blog,
Soon, I'll run out of webspace..
Til then...
I'll still post! :)

I thought I had all the answers;

Long post ahead..

I'll start with the happy,
I found nice pictures today,



The watermark bugs me.
:
Otherwise today was pretty crap.
Each time I feel like everythings getting in place,
some fucker just has to step in,
and mess whatever it was I fixed up.
So bloody irritating.
I can feel an impending murderous urge.
Some things just get on my nerve,
and I hate it when people do it, in front of me.

I got horribly irritated for the first part of the day.
And as a result, I was sulking away during PE.
Damn. Wasted a chance to lose weight.
So anyway, I tried to lose weight after PE,
by dieting, I think it was a success.
But when I got home,
Food galore!
How could I resist?
Anyway, I'm signing up for some stupid FAMINE camp.
held in Ngee Ann Poly.
That's how embarrassing if anyone would see me.

Ah well. 30 hours of CIP,
HERE I COME.

Another thing that irks me is that,
Eriksson named the England squad.
It's not final, but it's still irritating.
Owen and Rooney are the main strikers,
Heskey and Vassell are sub-strikers.
Where is Alan Smith and Defoe, you idiot?
Mere stand-bys. Huh.
Heskey is a big fat bungling brute. Guhh.
I'm irritated to say the least.

Soul
Matchbox Twenty

Hang out my window and over your head
Stare at your feelings to see where they end
You're waiting here for someone else
To break you from the inside
You've been so composed

We all know there's always something tearing you apart
It's always so much longer than you counted on
And it hits you so much harder then you thought
But you don't worry, you don't worry
'Cause you've got soul

You're so heavy, you're so misunderstood
And I spent all my wishes wishing times were good
When I still could
Wait around here for someone else
To take me past the good side
You've been here so long

We all know there's always something tearing you apart
It's always so much longer than you counted on
And it hits you so much harder then you thought
But you don't worry, you don't worry
'Cause darling, you've got so much soul
Darling, you've got so much soul

Well, there's always something tearing you apart
It's always so much longer than you counted on
And it hits you so much harder then you thought
Then you ever thought it would

But you don't worry, and you don't worry
'Cause you don't worry, you don't worry
'Cause you don't worry, you don't worry
'Cause you've got soul

Lyrics SPAM. I'm bored.
Nice song. Old song, but nice song.

Flowing red streams;

I'm so clumsy!
I fell down again.
I tripped over this stupid pothole.
And skinned my knees,
and have this horrendous bruise forming.
:(
This time was of my own doing,
and thankfully I didn't fall down in front of the SA cohort,
Just the VJ soccer team.
It isn't that bad I suppose.
But still,
horribly embarrassing.
:(

Why are we strangers;

Caught Troy again today.
Didn't diminish any entertainment value though.
Eric Bana is becoming more and more appealing
each time I watch it...
:)

And Paris isn't that much of a coward,
To say it nicely,
He's a man ahead of his time.
Moreover,
He wasn't brought up to be a warrior,
Nor brought up to be a Prince of Troy.
Don't insult Paris just based on the movie!

New template up!

Some pleasure for the senses..
Or rather, sense,

Aren't they so delectable?

Went to KTV today.
Wasn't particularly entertaining,
But wasn't bad as well.
My bladder feels so weak at this time of the month.
Kept having to go toilet..
I already went 4 times today.. :(

School was pretty alright.
Every teacher came,
but the fats didn't go to school..
Such a lazypokk.
Tmr's Parents-Meet-Tutors day. :/
I'm feeling so tired already
At this time of the day.
It's only 10. :
I want to sleeeeep...

I LOVE TROY.

Firstly and very importantly,
the view is already good,
What with Eric Bana, Orlando Bloom and Sean Bean.
I was so close to puddles in the cinema..
Hector is such a moving character,
Loyalty, devotion, honour, pride, love, valour.
He's a paragon of perfection.
I cried when he died.
Paris may have been cowardly in his actions,
But he was not brought up a warrior nor prince,
Unlike Hector.
And what cowardice he shows,
is slightly balanced off by courage displayed at other times.
Even though I had read the Iliad
To find out about the myths,
And knew what was going to happen,
The movie was still very pleasurable to the senses.
Yes. Even though they made it PG.
It could have been better I suppose,
But I like it just fine.

The movie brings about the theme of redemption.
Shit. Fuck me if this doesn't sound like I'm doing Lit.
Wait, I retract that statement.
I sound like I'm doing Lit.
Redemption of Achilles and Paris in particular.
Also, it is a movie that is very beautiful.
The CGI is great,
The battle scenes interesting.
It is around TTT's CGI standards.
I don't have to give any spoilers,
Because everyone knows what the story is like.
Troy loses, Greece wins.
Many die.

Certain things about it tho,
The movie focuses very much on character development,
and not so much on the going-ons of the war.
In fact the decade-long war
was made to seem like it ended in 15 days or so.
However, I support character development.
Because I love 2 of the 3 principal cast. :)

But it is a very good movie!
I'm going to watch it again on Sat.
AHH. My swoon-worthy men.
EB, OB, SB!
Especially Orli and Eric,
they have dark curls.
It's so sexy..
They're so sexy.
Especially, Orli..
He's so pretty..
-blissful sigh-

Check this out.
The latest entry..

Decided to get a list of "Wants"..
So here goes..

1. New shoes. Sports and heels.
2. New com.

Basically, that's it. Oh my, this is a first.

Fly;

A sparrow builds a nest,
Lays its eggs, hatches them,
Rears them.
And they fly away.
Another sparrow sees the nest,
Lays its eggs, hatches them,
Rears them.
Again, they fly away.
Yet another see the nest,
Lays eggs, hatches eggs,
Rears little sparrows,
And, still, flies away.

Like the nest that never leaves,
Time goes on by,
Some of us stay where we are.
Unmoving.
Watching the same cycle repeat itself,
Unable to change matters.

Years go by, and still,
Rooted to the place where you
First felt put together,
Complete.
People come in,
They waltz out.
You still remember the one who built you.
You stay where you are.
Because,
The one who had completed you
Flew away.
Forgot to make you wings
While they were putting you together.


Words don't seem to come out right these days, falling short of what I want them to be. Like rain, sometimes there's just so much to say; at times there's none to speak. Emotions rage, moods fluctuate. I don't know what to do at times. There's so much I'd like to do sometimes, but most of all, I want to run away. Escapism seems to be the story of my life. So much confusion, so much frustration. Too much tears.

You'd Never

I place myself in your hands,
I watch you treat me like glass,
Like porcelain, something you're afraid of breaking.
I wanted to say
I won't break I'm made of sterner stuff.

I let you lead me to wherever,
You tread gently.
Like ashes, you're afraid the ground would crumble
beneath me, and no one would pick me up.
I wanted to say,
No matter what I know you'd never let me fall
Even if you had to brace the fall for me.

You'd never let me down,
Never break me into pieces.
I'd trust you with everything and more
You treat me like I'm breakable sometimes
Because if I were to crack the slightest,
You know you'd shatter.
I know you would never let me down,
'Cause baby, you love me.

And I know,
Wherever I go,
When you are there,
I'd never have to worry,
Because you're out there fighting my battles.
And when you aren't,
I'd still not worry,
Because love, you're always in my heart.

And what words can't say,
I'd like to show you.
For the rest of our lives.

Going down;

I think I wrenched my back somehow
during Phys Ed today.
Waving the flag around didn't help matters much..
Was having trouble walking for a while..
Ahh.
School's so boring.
I just want to sleep so badly,
and yet,
there's so much homework!
And I'm such a freak to want to do my homework.
Gahh.

Smithie's still out of commission
his back is royally out of whack.
Oh well.
There's PE tmr.
I hope I don't mess it all up again.
Might not be doing PE anyway,
'cause my back's such a pain!

It must've been cold there in the shadow;

Yesterday's play was alright -- Rossum's Universal Robots
It was better than expected,
but it could have been better though.
The lead character, Elizabeth, played by that A21's indian girl,
(I'm not racist here, but I just don't know how to spell it)
kept tripping over her lines,
but otherwise did quite a good job.
The casting was done pretty badly as well.
Some did not suit their parts,
did not look their parts.
The robot, Radius,
(played by Melanie)
was good though.
Emma provided comic relief.
Another thing about the play,
was that the language was not standardised.
Throughout the play, it was mostly good.
Alas, there were very clear pronunciation errors,
and some one had said, "Got any scissors?"
The backstage personnel, and also known as the robots,
did a horrible job as robots, they fidgetted,
and I think some of them were about to laugh.
On other counts,
much of the acting was pretty mediocre.
The play itself, was interesting.
I mean, it's much better watching this,
than to be watching a typical school play.
I mean, the choice of the play.
I think SA has the tendency to choose plays
that have very strong political connotations..
What with Animal Farm and this?
But that's good. To me.

Oh my, I'm so critical.

Afterwards, we had prata at the Prata House.
Wasn't worth all they hype.
Mmm. But the company made up for it.
And my mother sort of praised my this group of friends.
Saying that they are a pretty guai bunch.
As in, they go home horribly early.
I think she fully expected me to stay out til at least past 1am.

And today's Mothers' Day.
Happy Mothers Day to mothers out there.
Especially my own mother.

A beautiful smile to hide the pain;

I blogged yesterday night,
I don't know what happened to it.
Oh well.
Heading down to NUS later for the play.
It's so far!
Gahh.

Yesterday I bought my mom her
Mother's Day gift, and I promptly dropped it.
As in, it was fragile.. and I cracked it.

SAT in the morning.
I think i screwed it a little.
I mean, I think I did worse than before..
If I get worse, I think i'd cry.

My Fatboy is getting to be like an ah-beng
Swearing in dialect over and over again.
Banging the table just cause his computer game
isn't going the way it should?
Probably he died in FPS or smth.
WOW. What an apt reason.

Did you know that you were my hero;

Brace yourselves for a long entry...

Everything is alright.
I'm just too bored.
This week feels quite packed..
I still have to do my Lit essay, GP assignment,
study for Econs test, study for SAT.
Actually, I won't do the latter two,
but I just like to make myself feel good
and hardworking.

I want to watch SO MANY movies.
Goodness,
wherever will I get the money for all?

In order of my desire to watch:
1. TROY. Oh yea. For sure. Since last year.
Four words - Orlando Bloom Eric Bana.
(Whoever said Orlando Bloom only looks good as Legolas!)
2. Secret Window. Two words - Johnny Depp. Yes, I'm that shallow.
3. Elephant. Sounds GOOD.
4. Beautiful boxer. Sort of a life story of a transexual..
5. Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen.
'Cause I just feel like watching a corny drama.
6. Harry Potter. Ditto.

But mostly, TROY. How I hope it's R(21), and how I hope it's not.
Hope it is R(21), 'cause the uncut version of the show is supposed to be a hard R.
If they cut it too much, it won't be too original. right?
Hope it's not, so it'll be easier to borrow ID. :

Lyrics spam ahead..


Amazing. - George Michael.

I was going down for the third time
My heart was broken, I was not open to your suggestions
I had so many questions
That you just kissed away

I was going down for the third time
My heart was broken,
I thought that loving you was out of the question
Then I saw my reflection
Saying please don't let this go

Tell me, I guess that cupid was in disguise
The day you walked in and changed my life
I think it's amazing,
The way that love can set you free
So now I walk in the midday sun
I never thought that my saviour would come
I think it's amazing
I think you're amazing


George Michael rocks.
That sounds really sopohomoric, er.
I mean sounds really 14-yr-old slang.
His new album, "Patience" is created for gays to dance to.
:)

Here's the dampener,

Michael says this comes after a tabloid printed pictures of him on holiday looking relaxed.

“The most horrific thing that happened when I got caught out in LA was that I got photographed with my shirt off and I was fat. There was one photo in the News of the World that had a subheading “fat and gay”," he says.

"That was all it said “fat and gay”. Talk about body fascist and homophobic. It was like saying ‘Can you imagine two worst things than being “fat and gay”?"

Taken from uk.gay.com

Is there any wonder why I prefer UK to US.?

Angel please don't walk;

Sheesh. Finally have the strength to come online.
And stay online.
Had food poisoning yesterday,
then I had fever.
Still having fever, but it's much better.
Because of food poisoning,
I'm not supposed to take any form of dairy products.
And I'm suffering from Milo withdrawal!
Took a green slip to go home early today,
and slept about 5 hours,
and dreamt about Milo.
I swear I drooled while sleeping.
Never believed that this was possible.
Sigh.
Kept feeling horribly dizzy,
Guess it's 'cause I haven't been eating.
So I just ate instant noodles.
Without chilli.
Life without Milo, without chilli,
is very scarey...

The past weekend's soccer was heartbreaking.
ManU lost, Chelsea won.
Leeds lost, ManCity won.
Newcastle lost, Liverpool won.
They didn't play against each other,
but ManU has most probably lost their second placing,
Newcastle losing its forth placing,
and Leeds have a 90% chance of getting relegated.
:(