i am super irritated.
i lost my hp today.
sucks.

anw. i hate my dad.
cus my mom was irritated and she started screaming.
and said she wont buy me a new hp.
okay. she always overreacts.
then my daddy came and act nice.
then aft tht, when he left
i heard my mom saying tht
its so irritating tht she has ter find time
ter buy me a new hp..
and then my dad said dont buy a new hp for me.
wtf.
i hate hypocrisy.

said i'm too spoilt. wtf.
i'm just spoilt okay.
there's a diff there.
you want too spoilt.
i can give you too spoilt.
chh.

anw. went out with wen today.
ter get her xt's present.
and. walked ard.
took corny pics at topshop tho.
cus we chose mostly ugly clothes for each oth.
right here...










somehow the clothes dont look as bad as they felt now..





i'm still damn irritated.
my bro left 4 or 5 hp in cabs.
my lil bro left 3 hps in the wash. within 3 mths of purchase..

i only lost 2 hps so far la.
and one got run over.
and i get screwed!?
when no one else does
wtf.

rugrats was cute!

aft tht we went ter sos.
it was okay la.
was slpy tho.

wen stayed over at my place.
but cldnt get ter slp..
and i cldnt slp well with someone sharing my bed..
i must get a king bed sometime soon huhh.

she left like at dawn.
yaa. really dawn..

i'm bored.. slpy too..

i'm damn bored.
Wen's coming over soon,
and then we'll go watch Rugrats!
yea rugrats!
with the wild thornberries.
donny is so cute!!! haha.

haha. i love nickelodean cartoons!!

:)

my mom wants ter tell Auntie Serene
(who is siewping's mom)
tht siewping is crked.
haha..
i'm persuading her ter not tell..
why go fuck up someone else's life..

:/

i was so bored tht
i simply got myself irritated again.

how can certain persons be so full of self-importance?!
that thought disgusts me.

arghh. really dread the next year.
i hafta make my choice soon. argg.



and to choose,
is to always leave someone or something behind...

Why did you have to leave me?



When you said that love will conquer all?



Why did you have to leave me?



When you said that dreaming was as good as reality?

1. My desktop shows: umm. a totally pink wallpaper with a guess model..
2. Book I'm reading: Lord Of The Rings: Return Of The King... all it has done so far, is making me feel like not watching the movie..
3. On my mouse pad: i dont use a mousepad??
4. Favorite board game: Checkers?
5. Favourite magazine: Her World? i dun really know...
6. Favorite smell: Givenchy Irresistable or smth. wanna get it..
7. Least favorite smell: shit.
8. Worst feeling in the world: depression..
9. Favorite sound: no sound at all.. i like silence
10. First thing I think of when I wake up in the morning: time?
11. Rings before I answer the phone: i try not ter answer it.. hopefully someone else will..
12. Favorite color: shades of red, and black and white..
13. Do I like my name?: its okay i think. ahha..
14. I was named after: err. god knows..
15. Favorite food: i like seafood... i like pasta, i like sandwiches, certain hams... so mb.. Ravioli Marinara with Turkey and Mushroom Foccacias??
16. Do I drive fast?: i cant drive YET..
17. Chocolate or vanilla?: choc
18. Worst disaster I fear: .... i dunno.
19. Storms, cool or scary?: err. its just irritating.
20. My first car: ... my first car would prob be smth cheap. and then i'll save up for an expensive one! :)
21. Dead or alive, I would like to meet: er... i have no idea.. prob JFK, find out whats the big hype abt him.. like. so what if he was the first prez ter get assasinated in office, or smth.
22. Zodiac sign: scorpio.
23. Favorite drink: ..dunno.. diary stuffs. i like milk.
24. Favorite vegetable: i hate vege. prob long beans french beans or smth..
25. If I could have any job, it would be: tai-tai..
26. Hair, long or short: not too long, not too short..?
27. Times I've been in love: mmm. depends on the definition... prob once. or none..
28. Glass, half-empty or half-full: i dunno now.. i usually say fill up the cup when its half empty or full....
29. Do I type with my fingers over the right keys?: nahh
30. Favorite movie: POC. i think. haha. watched it 3 and a half times...
31. What's under my bed?: dust.
32. Lucky number: i like 31..
33. Favorite sport to watch: soccer.
34. PC or Mac: PC
35. On my nightstand: umm is tht a sidetable thing? i've got a hi-fi tht tks up half the space, chargers, md, lamp..
36. Pillows on my bed: 2 pillows, 2 cushions, a bolster? many stuffed animals.
37. In case of fire, I'll take: a fire extinguisher..
38. I admire: err. i dunno.
39. Best thing ever invented: aircon! :) and heater tooo.
40. Most influential person: in sg? LKY..
41. Favorite place(s): my room! tho its dirty, messy, used ter be really smelly. but i love it all the same! :)
42. Do I say my prayers?: nahhhhhhh
43. Minutes I spend in the shower: depends on how rushed i am..
44. Most prized possession: have no idea...
45. My best asset: err. i dunno... i like my feet tho. haha.
46. Jewelry I wear: right now? a ear stud and 2 dangly things, my omnipresent chain..
47. Coke or Pepsi: cherry coke! altho i dunno why everyone hates it..
48. What I had for breakfast: i had.. nth?
49. Favorite time of the year: hols.
50. If I were a cartoon character, I would be: sinbad! frm the movie. cus it looks so fun swinging on all the vines. :)

Went shopping with Chrys today..
We bot tops frm Zara.
Walked a lil,
and came home.

Dint so Sentosa with Wen cus...
her buddy class are really really. er. loser.?
haha. cept for one person la. :|

oh ya.
in aussie,
Rugby is huge.
so anw.
i watched bits of the finals.
and i think Johnny Wilkinson or smth like tht
the Eng player.
is qte cute.
haha. yes.

ooh Wen
i missed ya too!
vv sianned.
no one ter shop with me in Aussie. haah

woohoo!
I'm back in sg.
like finally.
i missed my bed tonnes!!!
the bed in the hotel i stayed in was a SINGLE bed.
not even supersingle. sigh.
and it was like. slping on wood.
i love my bed.! :)

i'm irritated.
spent i think 80+ for presents back.
then i realised.
tht the stuffs i bot..
were not really souveniers.
ER. i felt real dumb aft tht,
and. i bot chocolates for Cand.
really really cute chocolates tht are heavenly,
and i squashed them.
argh.

the weather was cold while i was there.
this morning,
when i was still there, it was warm.
so i think i'm damn unlucky,
tht i got all the cold weather.

the interesting thing was,
i went ter Philip Island ter see the Penguin Parade,
and i saw penguins having sex.
haha. qte cute/
they'll honk alot just before the do it,
then they're terribly silent when they have sex.

the aeroplane trips were good too.
watched 5 movies i think.
Hollywood Homicide,
American Wedding,
Bad Boys II,
Uptown Girls,
Pirates of the Carribean,
and Sinbad!

oops. tht was six.

shall blog more next time.
haha.
and i met Sara. ya.

Oh ya,
i love Australia,
cus i think Australians make me look
damn damn slim.
cus they're all so so so fat. :)

siann.
suddenly i dont wanna go Aus ler.
i'm weird. sighh.

omg.
i wenta yr's blog,
at tht time i happened ter be listening ter
SHE's Wu Ke Qu Dai,
then i heard some guy moaning groaning away..
i was freaked.
haha
then i realised it was some opera thing-y
music on yr's blog.
oooops.
haha

Uploaded Sentosa pics.
its all in the link box to the left..
:)

Went Sentosa today with Wen
and her buddy class.
err. the class. is loser-ed up.
hahah.

anw. saw lotsa people there.
Atikk, Ser, Debbie!
anw. I left early with Ser cus..
i was damn bored..

Had dinner at HF hawker.
i like the duck soup.. :)

Will try ter blog when I'm in Aus.
:)

Mmm.
Just got home..
Went ter meet Wen today..
Watched Wishing Stairs.
The cinema really sucked,
the couple next ter us were homophobic or smth.
The woman talked damn loudly during the show,
saying, "Why this show got so many lesbians one?!"
with like, utter disdain..

So irritating.
Anw. I recco the show.
It's qte interesting, and there are lesbian undertones.
Lastly, the girls are cute! (except the fatty)

Aft tht we went ter the new place at Cine,
the Buttercup Cafe (I think).
It's really cute,
nice place ter sit at and hang out.
The food's for light meals or brunches tho.

My cam's fixed.
Gotta collect it tmr.
:)

Woah. I blogged so much..


And yes. Sara. My hair is damn flat.
Sadly.

bored..
beyond words.

:(

Wem.. i uploaded the pics from er.
Tues or Weds. haha
its really qte ugly..
anw. its here..


photos

PW is finally over. :)
cheers.

had breakfast with Vic..
Went bowling with Chrys.
and went dinner with my fam.
mmm. okay day i guess.

anww. thx ter everyone
who wished me happy bdae. yeaa.
i'm lazyy.. :)

my bdae's ending soon.
i dint have a cake this year tho..
how sad..
i wanted ter eat Lana cake badly. :(

wahhh..
i feeeel so appreciated. haha
for the first timeee..
thx Serena!! :)

anw. today was. a.. um... okay day.
haha. suppta meet at 12. i woke at 1130.
wen was slping like a log.
kept calling her for an hour la.
woahh.
then suppta meet at 115.
then at 111, me and Wen decided ter go sentosa.
so poor Neo had ter go back ter sentosa.
ooops. haha.

anw. it was qte boring..
too few people la..
anw i think Neo's class is chao enthu.
so many people went..
as opposed ter my class.!?
er... hahah. whateverr.

anw. we slacked qte alot. then wenta HF.
ate then went home la..
was terribly slack.
anw.. today i missed my cam tonnnnes.
everyone was using their cam. shite.
and i dint have mine. er... so saddening.

anww. thx Serena again!! haha.
am feeling a lil lightheaded right now.
and yes.
i dint get the meaning wrong. haha.

And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Because your presence still lingers here
And it won’t leave me alone

When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
And I’ve held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me



i am boreeddddd.
like the lyrics ter tht Evanesence song.
dont like the band tho.
haha. dont even think i spelt the name correctly.
realised i have some pretty weird songs in my com.
haha. really not nice sounding sounds..
very chant-like...

anw. my lil bro's playing E.T. really funnily.
he ran alot.. to get ter where the fight what..
preparing ter shoot ler.
then he got blasted ter pieces by the panzer.
qte funny la.
but again. when i narrate it.
it turns out ter be not funny aft all. :(

oh. and E.T. is not the movie thing.
its Enemy Territory.
the lastest installment ter the Wolfenstein series.
okayy. its not really latest. qte old in fact,
anw. its a nice game.
great graphics.!!!

went out ter have dinner and watch
Matrix Revolutions...
it was okayy..
somehow i thot the second one was better. haha.
this is like. so final...
yepp.
with Wen and Roy.
haha. weird combi! :/

anw. Wen gave me my early bdae present. so..
thanks Wen, Neo, Esta, Chrystle!
er.. did i leave out anyone??
cus i have a feeling i did.. :/

was uber tired todayy..
so i overslept PW meeting. haha
SORRY..

anw. woke up..
then met Chrys in the later aft.
wenta send my cam for repairs..
and then we wenta get zx's bdae present.
haha. got briefs. and oth stuffs.
its jock strap briefs.
its how cute la. haha..

anw.
met Sera and Candice in town
haha. realised tht i met all the '86 bball bimbos. hahaha
umm. i'm excluding myself! :)

i'm so frigging scared now.
i dropped my cam cus my bro bugged me ter do smth.
then. now its totally not working at all.
shitt.
at first tot it was the battery.
but i just charged it.
SIGHHH. i'm soooo saddened.
fuck la. i'm how careless.
is it possible for the cam to spoil aft ONE drop.?!
shit. i'm dead meat if my mom knows. ARGH.
and i'm gg on hols next weds summore. argh. shite.
how ter hide from her.
i'm preparing for my head ter roll...

heh..
cant stop laughing at this joke i cracked.
dunno how ter explain.
its a very situational joke.
so no point if i post it also.
haha. i still think it's funny. :)

whatever happened to Amelia Earhart?
did she die in her plane crash?
did she survive?
i'm bored.
so i'm resorting to reading historical mysteries..

went for OP todayy.
was qte sucky i thinkk. worse than the dry run.
i'm still bored.. hadter stay for the whole day..
sianned.
aft tht wenta eat at Harbour Front.
i'm falling in love with Yoshinoya's Gyoza.
i'm yearning for it againnn.
:(

damn bored.
PW grp came ter my house ter do PW.
Barely got ath done. sianned.
aft tht wenta meet Chrys and Wen in town.
slacked alot.
came home.
sighh.
i'm feeling. weird....

2-1.
i love man u.
haha.
i think liv shd sell Kewell.
Kewell is good.

bored like hell.
man u and liv still draw.
no wait wait!
Giggs scored!!
yeaa! haha. 1-0!!!
:)

yayy!
my Lunchberg scored for Arse. woohoo!
won the game for them tho..
i mean. Ljungberg! yeaa!
dunno why i'm cheering.
manu cant get higher placing tho.
but...ahhh

i love my Lunchberg! :)
he's how sexy! :)
Pires too... i mean. sexy.

yesyes. manu.. has.. unfortunately..
only Rio. how could they sell Veron and Beckham.
they're stupid. Sell Forlan i tell you.
Beckham would do a much better job than tht Forlan person.
Veron.. mb not. hahah

i am irritated again.
but i'll sure as hell get carried away
if i start blogging
and i'm still on tht kick of mine.
but.
i hate liars. asshole bastards.
if you dont wanna tell the truth.
then just shutup abt the qn?!
i am irritated. verymuch.
i am irritated. really. very.

the person i'm talking abt.
i wish you'd go and die.
and the other person i'm thinking abt.
i wish you'd go and die too.
500 miles away from the first person.

i'm bored. wenta work today.
sucks.
boring.
some woman there was real friendly.
we went ter break tgt.
tho she was kinda old.
haha. mb 40+ i dunno.

went ter buy my bdae present aft dinner.
had a humongous quarrel with my mama.
haha. she said i dont have a heart. etcetcetc.
OOOPs. ahah. felt kinda bad abt it...
for a while. then i brushed the guilt aside for anger..
heh.
i'm bored.

she sits there alone and afraid
of what the past hides
of what the present shows
of what the future will bring
is there some way to stop time
and freeze this silent moment
this moment of serenity and beauty
this moment when she feels at peace with the world
when there is no bombings in the mind
nor gunfire nor cries of pain
she keeps herself distant from the world.
all she can see are things she want to see
all she can hear are melodious songs she likes
all she can feel is warmth and happiness
she doesnt want to go back to the world of the living
she's living in her own dream world..


Dont know when on earth did i write smth so profound?! haha
what wars?! ohmy. haha.



she sits by the window..
seemingly mesmerized by the rain
fat droplets splattering on the window sill
trickling down the clear glass
but she is thinking again..
she needs to get away
but she has no where to run to
she craves companionship and at the same time
she craves solitude
confusion warring in her mind
too many conflicts going on for too long
she needs help.
but pride gets in the way. she will not ask..
inside she's crying silently to herself each day
somebody save me from myself...


SO angsty.
woah. must've been my PMS period.
think i'm gg thru it right now too.
steer clear yaa

i hate it when i let someone i dont even know
inconvenience me.

damnable inconveniences.
why do i even bother ter do these shit.
it wasted a precious what. 10 mins of my time.
sheesh. tht's much too long ter spend on you
and wasted 15cents. ridiculous.

there's a reason why i stored it as history.
dumdum.

i hate this loneliness. emptiness that surrounds me
i miss having someone with me all the time.

i hate it when i have no dreams.
i miss the feeling of loving someone.

i hate this feeling of reliance. the want to rely on someone.
i miss having someone love me.

i dont wanna work tmr. dammit.
really dont want.
but seriously. how ter pangseh right,
SIGH.

shit. i typed a long entry lor.
irritating. got deleted.

took CLAO in the morn.
aft tht wenta Sentosa with Wen. and classmates..
YuLing. Angela. QiuHua. and dunno le.
aft went ter pitch their tents.
then aft tht.
wenta Siloso.
played vball abit. capts ball.
then Wen's friend TeomTing came.
aft tht played abit more.
and left early.
cus i thot i was meeting Chrystle.

in the end dint meet cus
the tickets were qte far in front.
then dont feel like straining necks.
so yaa.

then left Sentosa with Wen and TeomTing.
had dinner with Wen at Yoshi.
Came home ard 930 i think.. :/

>MY....
>:x: name = xiujuan
>:x: piercings = eh. 3 earholes?
>:x: tattoos = nonee...
>:x: height = 173.. but i think i'm actually slightly shorter than tht.
>:x: shoe size = heels-7 sneakers-wmns9,mens8.5
>:x: hair color = er. its abit of a mess right now. darkish. mainly black.
>:x: siblings = 've got two bros.

>LAST...
>:x: movie you rented = mmm. dont think i ever rented movies.
>:x: movie you bought = haha. pirated stuffs frm hk?? yaa.
>:x: song you listened to = my beloved Fields of Gold..
>:x: song that was stuck in your head = Fields of Gold!
>:x: cd you bought = Energy? haha. i like the zhi you ni.
>:x: cd you listened to = Energy.?
>:x: person you've called = Vic.
>:x: person that's called you = LianChoo? she gave me two missed calls summore. haha
>:x: tv show you've watched = umm. dunno. been ages since i watched TV. mb a tribute to Elvis.
>:x: person you were thinking of = er. Elvis? haha.

>DO...
>:x: you have a crush on someone = nahh.
>:x: you wish you could live somewhere else = sometimes.
>:x: you think about suicide = used ter.
>:x: you believe in online dating = er no. you'd prob end up with some freak. :/
>:x: others find you attractive = never.
>:x: you want more piercings = i guess. but i'm humji la. scared of the pain. cus i wanna pierce my tongue! cute eh.
>:x: you like cleaning = nono.
>:x: you like roller coasters = yeaa.
>:x: you write in cursive or print = print!

>FOR OR AGAINST...
>:x: long distance relationships = against.
>:x: using someone = can go both ways..
>:x: suicide = against.
>:x: killing people = mm. if there's a really good reason. i'm for it!
>:x: teenage smoking = can go either way too. but prefer not ter.?
>:x: driving drunk = against
>:x: gay/lesbian relationships = forr...
>:x: soap operas = against.

>HAVE YOU...
>:x: ever cried over a girl= yeppp.
>:x: ever cried over a boy = er.. i dont think so. haha
>:x: ever lied to someone = yeaa
>:x: ever been in a fist fight = nahh
>:x: ever been arrested = yeaaa. :/

>WHAT...
>:x: shampoo do you use = er. Loreal Professional Sebo Control, Loreal Elseve Energy Shampoo, Loreal Kids Strawberry Smoothie, relatively unknown yet really good chemical-ish shampoos. PH smth. er. dunno what oth names they have also. haha and lots.
>:x: shoes do you wear = my nike sneakers.. er. and slippers and sandals. rarely get ter wear heels.
>:x: are you scared of = roaches. and lotsa emotional mumbo jumbo..

>NUMBER...
>:x: of times I have been in love? = eh one.
>:x: of times I have had my heart broken? = once, by my own doing...
>:x: of girls I have kissed? = er. more than one too. but most were truth or dare-ish stuffs.
>:x: of boys I have kissed? = err.... more than one? haha
>:x: of girls I've slept (in a bed) with? = many...
>:x: of boys I've slept (in a bed) with? = nil.
>:x: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends = er. dunno. mb 1 at the vvvvv most.?
>:x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = zero... :(
>:x: of scars on my body? = tonnes on my knees and elbows.. chicken pox scar on my nose.. and one on the side of my belly.
>:x: of things in my past that I regret? = mm. too many to countt..

>DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
>:x: pretty= hell noo..
>:x: funny= unintentionally.. yeaa..
>:x: hot= nono.
>:x: friendly= haha nahhh
>:x: amusing= qte! at least i amuse myself loads.
>:x: ugly= haha. okay la.
>:x: loveable= nooo
>:x: caring= at times?
>:x: sweet= when i wanna.
>:x: dorky= eh. at times. hahaha.

>FAVORITE:
>:x: 5 letter word: er. fuckk?
>:x: actor/actress: er. hot babes! and seann scott william.
>:x: Candy: chewy candy!
>:x: Cartoon: south park. and nickelodean ones.
>:x: Cereal: er. alpha bits type? and any kinds with loadsa marshmallows. not oreo O's tho.
>:x: Chewing gum: juicy fruit!
>:x: Color(s): pink, red, white and black.?
>:x: Color nail polish: pastel. dark. french!
>:x: Day of week: sunday! my sleep in day! :)
>:x: Least fave day: .. have no idea. school days all suck.
>:x: Flower: lilies.! :)
>:x: Jello flavor: orange or grape!
>:x: Jewelry: er. the diamond heart chain thing which i broke.. twice.. :(
>:x: Special skills/talents: haha. is bitching considered one?
>:x: Summer/Winter: winter.. hides all the fats!
>:x: Trampolines or swimming pools: trampolines!!!

>|| PERSON WHO LAST.. ||
>:x: Slept in your bed: me..
>:x: Saw you cry: er. my class people?? haha. they even took photos of it. ahh. i think i looked qte cute! fat face! :)
>:x: Made you cry: er. last person?? daphne?
>:x: You went to the movies with: hmmmmmmm. i dont remember... Chrystle.!
>:x: Yelled at you: nobody!
>:x: Sent you an email: pattilicious

>|| Have you ever.. ||
>:x: Said "I love you" and meant it?: yea
>:x: Gone out in public in your pajamas: my house downstairs counted?? act. whenever i'm wearing a big tee and shorts, i'm out in my PJs.
>:x: Kept a secret from everyone: yes!
>:x: Cried during a movie: yeayea
>:x: Ever at anytime owned new kids on the block stuff: no... pirated song counted??
>:x: Planned your week based on the TV Guide: -nods
>:x: Been on stage: haha. to collect my math olympian silver thing? er. ya. oh and the silver north zone thing.
>:x: Been to New York: no..
>:x: Been to California: no..
>:x: Hawaii:no
>:x: China: no..
>:x: Canada: no..
>:x: Europe: no..
>:x: Asia: :) finally. yes. hahaha. i feel so loser.
>:x: South America: no.
>:x: Wished you were the opposite sex: yes!
>:x: What time is it now? 1145. oops tmr. Chinese. havent stared studying! :/
>:x: Apples or bananas?: banananas!
>:x: Blue or red?: red!
>:x: Walmart or target?: eh? what's target?
>:x: Spring or Fall?: spring.
>:x: What are you gonna do after you finish this?: sleeep!
>:x: What was the last meal you ate?: dinner. chicken stew. was terrible. my daddy wasnt hm.
>:x: High school or college?: er. have i ever college or highschool? i'm lost.
>:x: Are you bored?: very
>:x: Last noise you heard?: my mama shoutin at my lil bro.
>:x: Last smell you sniffed?: er. my jappy eggy soup.
>:x: Last time you went out of state/province?: Feb. HK.

>|| FRIENDSHIP/LOVE ||
>:x: Do you believe in love at first sight?: yeaa. if tht person is realll hot.
>:x: Do you want children one day & if so, how
many?: er. i dunno.
>:x: Most important thing to you in a friendship is: honesty

>|| Other Info ||
>:x: Criminal record?: somewhat no.
>:x: Do you speak any other languages?: mandarin!
>:x: Last book you read: Sandman libraries: Vol II, The Doll House. Bella's book.
>:x: Name some of your favorite things in your bedroom?: bed!
>:x: Thing you dislike about yourself the most: nth! i love me!
>:x: Worst feeling in the world: so many... cant choose.
>:x: Who you love: err. friends family i guess. no one else left. hahah.
>:x: Who you miss: look up!

>|| You ||
>:x: Nickname(s): xiu. juan. xj. whatever.
>:x: Initials: GSK.! haha
>:x: How old do you look?: 100
>:x: How old do you act?: er. 99
>:x: Glasses/Contacts: i;ve got great eyesight. dont need these..
>:x: Braces?: dont use this either.
>:x: Do you have any pets?: i did once.
>:x: You get embarrassed: yes!
>:x: What makes you happy?: lotsa stuffs
>:x: What upsets you?: lotsa stuffs too.

>|| Finish the sentence: |
>:x: I Love to... finish this stupidly long survey..
>:x: I Miss... my bed alrdy.
>:x: I Wish... to hurry up with this..
>:x: I Hope... i get A1 for my chi! hahahah!.
>:x: I'm Annoyed by... stupid people.
>:x: I Am... not stupid.
>:x: I Want to Be... aslp right now.
>:x: I Would Never... er. i dunno.
>:x: I'd Rather... be slping right now...
>:x: I Am Tired of... doing this bloodily stupid quiz
>:x: I Will Always be... wanting to sleep.

>|| Have you ever.. ||
>:x: Thought you were going to die: never.. i'm in gd health.
>:x: Wanted to Run away: yeaaa
>:x: Flunked a grade: DUHH.
>:x: Skipped a grade: yeaa. some phonics class i had when i was young. haha. think i might've skipped two grades. guess thts why i have passable pronounciation...

FINALLY.

today is stupid.
was suppta come home and study. but i dint la.
anw. suppta go for the job training thing.
altho now. i really really dread working.
its like. i dont wanna work now la.
cus i alrdy dont need the money.
i'm sianned.

marcus said it was at 6.
so i came home first. then ltr
i double chked. and it was at 3. wth.
i rushed down. cabbed down. when i'm alrdy damn broke.
and. went for only sucha damned short while.
waste money.
was gonna head down ter wens hse.
but her bro was hm. haha
so i came hm instead.
took me like. 1 1/4 hrs ter get hm?!
i'm very bored.

i'm bored..
i like my msn nick!

"If you were the moon, and I the night,
Would the light be drawn to your radiance,
Or lured into my darkness."

does anybody get it?
oh wells. i'm bored.
i bot a new bedsheet set too!
cheapcheap!
think was abt 60% off. :)
dint get any new clothes tho.
oth than my jacket and PJs.
must go shopping agn! :)
sianned.

my bra's werent on sale.. and. yes.
i now find it terribly wasteful ter buy bras.
expensive la. :(
anw. hopefully. vic's gg thailand.
help me buy okay!
i'll give you detailed descriptions! :)

ohmygoodness.
its so hard not ter rant.
i've got so much ter say!
argh. dammit. dammit.

came home. and went shopping.
tht's impt ter me la.
haha. dint rly get much.
tho i did get tonnes of shampoooo!
haha. its not cheap okay!
not like head&shoulders vidalsassoon kind.
haha. chemically kinds.
for my flakes in my hair. and for my oily scalp.
siann. bot a PJs top. guys shirts again.
i love guys shirts.
i wish i was a guy. i wish. haha fat hope.
jacket. nail polish. pimple cream?? haha.
er. makeup. mainly foundation..
haha. most of it is being delivered on fri tho.

and my mom's still disgusted with my hair. oops.

suppta do PW now.
but nth constructive is coming outta it.
and i'm not intending ter be vv hardworking.
cus there's rly no damn point for me ter
be like tht when only Serena's doing work.?
and. candice. went for a meeting
and nv came back.
i'm am super sianned.
the rest of them are simply giggling away.
i am so damn bored.
Candice just came back aft Serena got her back.
she was outside the lib.
using the com with Rebecca?!
oh my. wasnt she suppta come do PW?!

there's soo many oth things i wanta rant.
BUT.
i'm on my be-nicer-to-everyone-be-less-blunt kick.
so. yes.

am bored.
had PW oral presentation today.
think my grp did qte well for a grp which just finished our slides today.

Bella lent me her Sandman book.
Ahh. it's so nice la.
damn tempted ter get the whole series.
but.. it'd burn a BIG BIG hole in my pocket.

sianned.
realised tht if i dont rant,
i got not much ter blog abt. haha.

bored. did PW in sch
aft tht went Harbour Front with Cand.
Wenta my daddys office ltr.
Came home and slpt. :)

damn.
i redid the OP shit.
and i forgot ter save it.
as in. close ppt without saving it.
so there's no auto recovery.
i'm fucking pissed at myself.
i was going to slp.
i am so sick of PW.
too sick and tired to rant.
PW can go fuck itself too.
i hope it wont enjoy it.

oops.
i think i blurred the line btwn normal gossipping
and heartfelt angsty irritated vindictive bitching.

haha. i'd hafta try ter be more er.
nice. hahah.
what a revelation.
reading past blog entries.
i think i've carried my "blunt"ness too far.
oops. hahah
paisehhh!

i think til the day i die.
i'll nv figure out..

-why some people are so full of self-importance
-why some people are so selfish
-what has a com without internet gotta do with not meeting for PW
-why i'm so bored

Tease me, by holding out your hand
Then leave me, or take me as I am

I can feel the blood rushing though my veins
When I hear your voice, driving me insane

Hour after hour day after day
Every lonely night that I sit and pray

We'll live our lives, We'll take the punches everyday
We'll live our lives I know we're gonna find our way

I believe in you even if no one understands
I believe in you, and I don't really give a damn

ohno.
i must state smth clearly.!
i dont dislike cus of the way you talk.
or type or whatever.
there're more reasons to why i dont like you! haha.

and please. peishan.
its not you.
can you stop thinking for one moment
that my whole damn world revolves around you!?
i have better things to talk about?!
you're really not worth it.?!
grow up. chh.

but seriously.
tht way of typing.
is unclassy. uncouth.
downright stupid english.
its amazing how you can pass GP.
and. peishan. this doesnt refer to you too.

and i am superficial.
seriously. if you look like a dead duck.
i wont want to be seen on the streets alone with you!?
anw. who isnt superficial.
if you see a very ugly weirdo.
wont you feel the slightest bit of contempt or disgust?!
haha. or dislike.

anw. i find it ironic.
haha. my pw project is abt human rights.
and discrimination. and if i had my way.
i'd discriminate against half the world.

i'm seriously getting myself slightly wound up over nothing.
i'm bored.
PW isn't working out.
it's a mess.
fuck.

just deleted two more er.
vulgar paras.
toned down some words
i think thats a nice thing for me ter do!

ahh.
Sammi Cheng is really damn chio
in the Mei Fei Se Wu mtv.
i love her hair. :/

Cant seem ter stop blogging.
Dont seem ter mind either.

Stupid people are killing me.
Slowly, but surely.
ARGH.
dunno why i torture myself incessantly
by reading really ridiculous entries.
But. its kinda fun tho.
Again. i'm paradox-ical.
Again. i think i must have studied too hard.
ER. okay. thts ridiculous.

I think..
everyone should be direct.
no point backstabbing right.
or making pointed remarks.
go fuck yourself i say.
you might even enjoy it.

i'm self-absorbed.
and i love it.

Freak. Seriously. Er.
Found out some other people in our class had weblogs today.
wenta read. AND.
read some displeasing stuffs.
and displeasing is a mild word.
Vic. remem i told you i think tht someone is two-faced?
And.. you disagreed?
Now i can bet i'm right la.
My intuition is mostly correct! haha.

And. i hate people ter type this way.
"mi" "okie" "moi" "thingy" or. talk like this
"me no this. me no tht."
its just plain bad english.
not even Singlish. it sucks.
You're alrdy in JC. stop typing or talking like
you belong back in the Pri Sch. Stupid.
And. Some people who act cute.
through many ways.
Its seriously fucked.
But then i'm biased. Only some people acting cute is sick.
cus i detest them.
Did i mention.
Some people are seriously stupid.
In amusing and fucking irritating ways.
(its not you Marcus)

Seriously. I cant stop saying seriously.
its like a new funk word.
Should stop defending my use of seriously.
Seriously.

Tummy aches.
Gastric + constipation.
how disgusting.
i hate constipation.

Went for SAT today.
Siann. Was damn sleepy throughout.
Not too optimistic.
Think the best i can get is 1200+.
sucks. hafta take again soon i guess.

Aft tht went with Wendy ter Harbour Front.
Ate at Yoshinoya.
Then went ter her mom's tailoring shop at Joo Chiat.
My daddy came ter fetch me home ard 5.
Sian. Think i might be having constipation.

PW how!!
Are we going ter meet tmr.?
There is no way our content is gonna be enough
if we just use our written report info la.

I'm bored.
As in, bored with my life.
Wanta change lives..
Feels terribly boring
without anyone or anything to occupy my mind.
I like company, yet at the same time,
i crave solitude.
doesnt make much sense right.
feels like Lit. as in. paradoxes.
Dunno..

Tmr's November ler.
Tmr's my SATS. feels chao sian.
Don't know anyone who's taking it tmr
cept for Wendy.
Can be donating blood soon.
Dunno what's my obsession with it.
But it seems fun. or whatever.

I think. I won't mind dying.
Not to escape, but simply because
boredom can kill.

Everyone's boring me.
I really need new amusements.
Or maybe its just me who's boring.
My love life is zero.
(Ya. Got it right this time. Not sex life. haha)
Maybe thats why life's so boring.

I want ter go Sentosa.
But oh wells.
I'm bored.

Think i shall go ter bed again.